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Moodless

2011-07-19T21:49:00.000+08:00

Argghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!! Arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! imma so so sick with all these crap!!! y'all so called concern jz pissed me so so off!

-the end-

纪念七月十六日

2011-07-16T10:40:00.001+08:00

心情莫名的浮躁。血压低让我常感晕眩，身体仿佛出了问题，希望一切安好

思想这东西，我原本以为每个人都会随着年龄的增长而成熟，原来不是。身边的一位朋友，我倒是觉得那位朋友在经历失恋以后，仿佛变得有些许不成熟，抑或是爱情让人变得盲目幼稚？每个人在感情上犯错以后，都会为自己找借口,怪timing,怪对方，怪小三，怨天尤人。感情这东西，要拿得起放得下。再加上你这段感情一开始就是一段错误的情感，又何必那么执着？得得失失，这正是人生。你说你选择等上个三五年，那表示你有信心他会回到你的身边，那为何不好好的过你目前的日子？为那薄情汉搞到吃不饱睡不好，然后暴瘦，值得吗？身边的朋友是何等的担心你，你可了解？

付出与收获往往都不形成正比。这也是人生。我想我的度量还有待加阔加码。求精进 :)

有一点点伤感

2011-06-08T14:17:00.003+08:00

朋友们还是会拿我之前所犯下的过错来开玩笑。有时候，很想理直气壮地告诉他们:我再也不是这样！口说无凭，特别是在某某某的面前，总觉得自己很是卑微。所以我只能陪笑，其实内心很是落寞。

我承认，之前的我真的很是滥情，只要你条件好一些些，我就会想说，试一下无妨，即使我不是真的很喜欢对方。那时候的观点深怕自己错过，就怕那个我错过的其实就是对的人。如果时光可以倒流，我会很坚决的说不。

我有一个小小的要求，朋友们，别再拿我的过错来惩罚我了好吗？即使是开玩笑也罢，我自认我是个放得开的女生，只是在情史这一部分，我很是介怀 :X

很想告诉某某某，在你心目中，或许我很不成熟，你也常质疑我选择对象的眼光，但是我想告诉你，每个人的择偶条件显然是不一样的，你现在或许真的交了一个条件很不错的女友，但是我也不觉得你的眼光全然是很优越的。在爱情的面前，你我都是傻瓜。

小三

2011-06-01T02:17:00.000+08:00

小三。大概是疯了。哈哈

脑袋瓜

2011-05-08T02:06:00.002+08:00

脑袋瓜好累。深怕活动的哪项细节被我不小心给遗漏了，每天都战战兢兢，深怕接到主席的来电。Zzzz..
假期里竟然病倒，大概是疯了！哈哈！生理时钟真的有很大的问题。可怜的是我的肝。xD
在无聊，闷得快发慌的时候，脑袋瓜就不停放映和朋友们曾经相处的点点滴滴。在听到仨人这首歌，更是想念和她俩一起zo siao的时刻。可惜时光不能倒流，再也回不到最初的美好了。很是难过
有时候，也会想起期待手机讯息提示音响起的时候。曾几何时，我也有过青春少女的生活。xD
感叹啊！岁月不留人，现在的我，再也不相信在空气中建立的感情了。给我实际的约会，请我吃顿丰富的，那我就相信这一切都是真实的 xP
好啦！其实会写这篇网志皆是因为本人失眠了，所以漏液赶起这篇稿 xD
原谅我的不认真，我想我大概是怕疯了，也或许是闷疯了 :P

分手后=不是朋友

2011-05-01T23:40:00.001+08:00

昨天看了一个两性节目，议题是分手后还能做朋友吗? 在看了来宾们的分享以后，我开始认同一旦分手了，真的不适合再走得太近。试想想，你们要聊些什么？过去还是未来？感觉都会很奇怪。若是聊过去，你们是在缅怀过去，还想回到过去吗？那未来，你是在向他/她炫耀你和你目前的另一半有多甜蜜吗?

开始认同老妈所说的，别走得太近。我想我也得重新评估自己对家人还有朋友的定义。认真的想想，和辉也真的没啥好说的了，就不过有时会聊聊他人的近况。很扯！@@

对恋爱完全没有憧憬，Zzzz.. 几段感情下了，真的累积了很深很深的阴影。爱情？怕怕！

最近老妈流行帮我卜命。结果几乎都是大同小异。“她很聪明，只是有点懒。（瞎！成绩烂到像鬼酱）目前有男生对她很好（屁啦！半个都没有好不好？）以后事业很成功（这点倒是令我很振奋！一想到钱，我就很high)。老公也是成功人士（天啊！不要是跟我同行的好吗？超抗拒的！）以后会有两个女儿，两个儿子（天啊！四个？！OMG!最讨厌小孩了，我绝对不可能生到四个那么多）”

只想顺顺利利的挨多两年，希望不会再有任何感情纠葛。我真的怕死了！神明保佑! >_<

我终于了解为什么和铨还是那么尴尬了。原来自己是一个遇到问题就一味逃避的人，当初只知道感觉不对了，就急着想要结束，然后没把原因说清楚，留下他一个人在那里伤心流泪，但又不懂为什么我会酱突然的就说了分手。站在他的立场，我真是太狠心了。下次，我会站在另一半的角度去想的。我一定会。庆幸的是，他没像贤厌恶蕙君般的当我透明的，虽然还是不会当面聊天啦。可是对方没把我当敌人就很值得感恩了。

心中有个疑问，有点废，但真的还蛮值得思考的。当初辉那样的暗示我“再也回不去了”，然后“分手”二字让我来提。其实回想起来，他还挺会算的lor。哈哈！他可以告诉其他人说“分手并不是我提的”，还是他要让我有面子一些“是我甩他的。”？哈哈！只是突发奇想。没别的意思。

Tat's all :P

Fuhh~! Fuhh~!!!

2011-04-29T08:49:00.000+08:00

   LOL. edi berhabuk lar my blog. xD

   I'm done with my second year, 4 months of holidays waiting ahead :P

   Siao eh hor Msia Gov?! Demi attract foreign students, demi make the sem break align with oversea's uni's summer break, so they're now giving us 4 months of holidays. 没人会嫌假期少, tapi dont give it sekali gus boleh tak? It's a bit too long ler. -.-"

   This sem's exam suckz! Hahaha! Well, I admit that I've lost the passion, and I know the reason why. Hahahaha! Cannot lar, next sem shall stay away from her liao. Mana can compare myself to her one. Zzzz. She's genius, me noobie. She can never study the whole stacks of notes, then touch only one nite before exam, but the result she get still far more better than mine who studied one week ago. LOL. sometimes God jiu shi lidat de. T.T

   Ppl keep asking, ui! bo bf meh? Fulamak! What kind of ques is this? LAME gao gao. must have bf one meh? bo bf eh die eh meh? Single bu zhi duo hao. HAHAHAHHAHA! :P

   Say buh bye to my past, and I plan to work eh lor actually, tapi dunno can work as wat pun. FYI, I jiak gao aneh lao, nvr work b4 eh. Yea, I'm a xing fu de xiao hai xP

:')

2011-02-22T01:06:00.002+08:00

   我憋了很久很久，已经快有两星期了。我愤怒，所以我完全不能站在你们的角度去想。也许再过几个星期后我会发觉自己错得很离谱，但是这一刻的我，还是很不能谅解你们当下的责备，然后隔天的主动关心。原来那所谓的主动关心是别有用心的。

   我不甘心。为什么我就是没有机会留给自己一笔能动用的存款？我爱上了旅游，小时候错过了很多，现在我有能力了，为什么还是得错过？我的人生，似乎就在错过与错失中浑浑噩噩的度过。最近忽然很是嫉妒有机会出国留学的朋友们。外面的世界，我充满着无限的好奇。家家有本难念的经。姐姐会主动邀约我和她一起游台湾，真的很受宠若惊。不过，还是没有很尽兴，其中仍然有金钱的元素包含着并牵引着一切一切大大小小的风波。

   金钱，我小学时期很憎恨的一样东西，差点导致我家庭分裂的东西。现在，我竟然需要用它来买回老爸对我的信任。好不容易在近期建立的信任，就因为一次前度载我回家而摧毁了。我想日后想要要求外出，要得到许可应该不容易了吧！二十一？感觉就像被当成十岁的小孩般呵护 -.-”

   这回真的哭惨了，还好室友当时不在。委屈，所以哭泣。很想一次过把心中的不满和委屈都大大声的吼给老妈听。他们对我信任毁了，我对家的期待暂时性的也毁了

   泪腺，我多么希望你是voluntary的。也许你会觉得我还是不成熟，说真的，我不在乎你怎么看待我。对家，时爱时恨这种感觉，你们都不会了解的。我不停地告诉自己，我是特别的 :')

   Ques to myself: 我很想大大力的爱妈妈，但是就是不能，为什么？

寂寞好了

2011-02-03T02:47:00.000+08:00

   这首歌的歌词，我曾在面子书上分享过。那时候，他出国旅行，超想他的~热恋嘛！正常的！哈！

   今年的大年初一，竟然又给我听到这首歌 -.-"

   不过，感受是截然不同的。现在，并没觉得歌手有把它演绎得太感动。怎么当时就那么盲目的喜欢这首歌呢？哈！真是百思不得其解啊！

   爱情什么时候会再回来？不懂！现在连原本仅剩的一丝期待也被岁月给抹杀了~哈哈哈！只能说自己太现实了，也老噜 :D

BLUE + BLUR

2011-01-27T01:38:00.000+08:00

   现在的自己真的很很很negative~好累~感冒再加上啜泣，原来真的会窒息~

   Coursemates sometimes are just.. Hmph.. When can I only have a fixed friend of mine which can always share my things with me, notice whether I'm happy or sad~ concern bout me when I'm sick?? LOL.. seems like NONE! Hmph.. really sick of this kind of fake fake de friendship~ macam sentuh air je~泛泛之交

   Gosh! I shouldnt be putting much expectations on those ppl~ Who am I? I'm just a little girl who is ugly, stupid, not capable of doing anything~ U expect ppl to put attention on u all the time? LMAO.. U r just too naive, TGL! wake up!

   CNY time, I just wish to meet up few friends of mine. That's all. Dont wish to have this kind of void feeling anymore. It's really suckz!

   睡吧！明早起来又是一条好汉 :)

渐渐褪色的友谊

2011-01-08T13:19:00.000+08:00

   我一直都自认和他总是很合拍，自己也挺了解他的~不过现在的我，好像不太认识他~究竟是他变了，还是我变了？

   其实认真的想想，昔日再好的朋友，现在大家都在异地读书，自然会少了联络，对他们的近况，其实我真的不清楚。大家都还是有保持联系，但再也不会谈心事了~简单的来说，大家的自我防护意识似乎都自然的提高了。而我，也有很多不为人知的事 xP

   世界上没有东西是永恒的，今天，我见证了

   庆幸的是，我还有她 :)

宣泄

2011-01-04T16:01:00.000+08:00

   唉！诸事不顺~LOL

   只希望霉运快快过去~ 加油！:)

   Y meeting postponed to Sunday night wor? So so no mood to attend :(

   Y Pharmacy Idol's attendance mandate to all students wor? Haih~ Now, what also fail to achieve, wanna go KL? go while dreaming perhaps! Mummy asked me to go home to settle something, also become mission impossible~ Y academic stuff is so so bu ru yi these days? T.T

   Ah di, seriously, feel really really touched~ You so wu sim~ But too bad, I cant go. Haih.. Cake sam :C

   My senior is not so my senior yesterday night. LMAO. I wonder how come that girl wouldnt have LAM him. He's kinda hilarious eh ma.. Hmph.. perhaps physical outlook matters to her ba! Hahahaha

   My matric's time mia college grass is now no longer S&A. but............ his gf is... err.. err.. hahaha! 莫非心地善良就会有福报? tapi, this kind of fu bao is simply just too GREAT!! >_<

01012011

2011-01-02T01:46:00.000+08:00

   My heart will feel darn so void whenever I listen that song alone xD

   New year new resolutions~ I wanna my hair grow fast fast, then CGPA will definitely up up up and up this sem, then me myself and my family ping ping an an, jian jian kang kang

   To those who are reading this post, have u made a wish? :P

他

2010-12-30T17:58:00.000+08:00

   我和她他和她我们都爱她

   Eeee.. 如果发生这种事，我该怎么办才好？:(

虽然我愿意

2010-12-27T15:01:00.001+08:00

这是一首歌，一首我喜欢了好久好久的歌。可是很不好意思跟人家提起，因为歌手的名字有点尴尬 xP

这是一首本地创作，很棒！歌词很有意思，所以我喜欢~全力推荐！:P

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔
我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手

为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔
请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意
(心还想着你)

Game

2010-12-24T10:44:00.000+08:00

   Game, hai ren bu qian~ Zzzzz.. for the 2nd time, I almost screwed up his relationship -.-"

   Maybe I've just too used to be a spammer. =__________=

   Spamming is like jia chang bian fan to me, never tot that one post will bring so much harm
   Nv ren a nv ren, I really re bu qi @@

   P/S: I've got a lesson, never spam on those no longer S & A ppl's wall xD

Taiwan Trip Day 1 xD

2010-12-18T01:14:00.002+08:00

   LOL. Hahahahaha! Finally, after almost 1 week, then only I started to write on my Taiwan trip's experience~ Errr.. Yea! I admit that I'm lazy, super lazy! xD

   Okie, after talking about nonsense, now it's time for me to talk about my lovely and superb Taiwan trip. :P

   话说，这是一个十天的台湾游。But 我的第一天，就spent在曼谷新机场。我ah gong mia airline实在是太lousy了，早上0750的班机由槟城飞曼谷，然后曼谷飞台北是傍晚1755。这时间还是曼谷当地时间，意思就是说是马来西亚的1855。两个字，哇靠！其实我家族airline是不错啦，服务周到，空中餐好吃，飞机师的驾驶技术也很smooth，唯一略嫌的就是航班之间的gap实在是太太太大了。-.-"

   还好机票里也包括了提供酒店让我们休息，tapi很闷的咯！因为电视频道给我翻阅完了，才勉强找到一台我听得懂的频道。洗完澡以后，就和姐姐去机场四处逛逛。故事来了~我也忘了我们是在一间店门口望些什么了，突然一个洋籍老伯伯那他相机给我。我blur去，不知道他要干嘛~心想为什么他无端端塞一语不发的就pass了架相机给我。差不多十秒酱我大脑才process到原来他是要我替他拍照。ok lo,拍照。不过他拍的东西也未免太奇怪了吧！就在一家卖领带的店铺门口，还比手画脚，执意要我替他拍到那些摆设的领带 -.-"

   拍好了以后，我pass回相机给他，随口说口说了一声“done"，结果他嘟起他的嘴，作势给我一个吻。我猜想他是一个不会说英语的外国老伯伯，因为他想及目录的语言不是英语。终于我体会到了肢体语言的重要性。xD

   好不容易熬过了漫长的下午，终于到了班机时间。其实班机有延误，我还看到地勤被一些乘客被骂到臭头，真可怜。飞机延误又不是地勤的错啦 >.<这班飞机有超多的台湾人，我座位后排就坐了四位，我后面那位小姐，真的是有够过分的，把脚翘到我的椅背上，然后一直的踢，和她同伴说话的声量又超级大声，害我想小睡也不行 >.<

   三个小时半以后，终于到了台北桃园国际机场。导游来接我们，然后就回饭店休息。坦白说，饭店有点破旧~心想该不会接下来八天的饭店也是酱吧？

   不管了！累死了，扑头就睡~第一天也就在看了台北的夜景以后就结束了 :O

梦

2010-11-29T12:51:00.000+08:00

   我做了个超搞笑的梦~也许是昨天刚去剪发的关系，那么刚好帮我剪的人是我的同学~结果做的梦竟是有个发型师向我表白~ xDDDDDD (P/S: 梦境中的那个人并非我的同学，虽然年纪是跟我差不多，但却是一个我不认识的人 LOL）

   结果今早想了想，结论是，交个发型师男友是也挺不错！试想想，如果你是长发飘逸的女生，他可以定期地跟你做treatment。那如果你是短发的，头发就得一直修剪啊，这时候，他就很有用处了~你啥时想修，大可以要他替你修，想换发型，更是可以要他替你换~换了个你不满意的，你大可以痛打他一顿~哈！

   所以说，我的择偶条件的职业范围又扩展了。

   LMAO

爱情观

2010-11-29T02:46:00.001+08:00

   爱情~很玄的一种东西。在我身上，似乎永远只需八个字，就足以带出我的故事，那就是"来得匆匆，去也匆匆"。

   坦白说，我不是一个会百分百沉醉于一段感情里的人。你可以说我是怕受伤害，也大可以说我自私！我就是不会。我觉得生命中除了爱情，还有很多事情是需要我去关注的。也许人生真的需要拥有爱情才算完整，但至今我还是没找到一个可以让我把他当成太阳，围绕着他公转又自转的人。

   上一段恋情，算是最有恋爱感觉的一次拍拖。其实打从一开始我就知道我不会是他要找的那个人，但我还是很享受整个过程，因为他给得到我要的感觉，他给得到我要的tempo。最终我可以很潇洒的放手是因为我深知自己不是他要找的人，而我也无法陪他完成他想完成的事。我只希望那个她可以给他更多~伟大吧? 很酷吧? LMAO

   从这段恋情里，我学了不少东西，也领悟了不少~最chi gek的还是莫过于让我有股要过得更精彩，更有自信的冲动，更甚的是，竟会酝酿出绑牙的勇气 xD

   我很佩服那些功课与爱情都兼顾得到的朋友。经过了几次试验，我的结论是，我不是那种人。所以我还是乖乖地等到毕业以后再说了 LOL

   如果硬是要说没拖拍的人很dry，那我会很自豪的称自己为"干物女"。如果您也认为缺少了爱情，人生就不完整的话，那我也会很大声的回话“对啊，我目前的人生并不算完整，但总有一天，我会把它填满！” :)

Holiday lurhhhhhh

2010-11-21T10:20:00.000+08:00

   Yay! Exam mania is finally OVER! Duih! This sem's exam stress like hell. No joking! The level of stress can really compared to SPM time -.-"

   Everyday studied like there's no tmrw~ At 1st when the exam timetable was out, I tot I would be really dead this time as every single paper is on morning, 9am sharp! Gosh! I'm not morning study type person, morning my mind would be BLUR @.@

   Thx God for bo bi-ing me that I could study the whole night with one hour sleep in between then straight away sit for exam, then the brain was still fresh ^^"

   Hee! Okay, lets have a quick review on those papers I've sat for~ 1st, errrr.. I could really hard to recall~ LOL. Owh ya! Dosage Form Practical.. Oh gosh! The formulation, 1st question's formulation got wrong ler~ T.T

   2nd paper, antimicrob~ Hmph~ 4 unit paper, I tot it would be the toughest, but afterall, it wasnt as tough as I tot. I did quite okay for this paper except for the clinical part >_<

   3rd one, medicinal chemistry~ Haihhh.. But at least I still managed to crab out something, hopefully the grade wont turn out to be too bad~ *finger cross*

   The following one would be english~ Hohoho! My fav paper ever! Easy ler! ^^

Then would be dosage theory test, ermmm.. This paper, haha! Quite okay also lar~ :)

   Friday no test, saturday no test, sunday surely NO test lar! Monday, physical pharmacy, kinda okay also~ except for habibah's part, apa yang telah aku crap, tak tau lar~ hahahaha! Then biotech, wat a KNS paper, tough like hell! Final paper, biochem! The worst paper I've done for this sem T^T Peeps, please pray for me, it's a 3 units paper, the grade cant be too bad, or else, buh-bye to my CGPA -.-"

   Yup! That's a summary for my 3rd sem exam~ Now, I'm having 1 month ++ holiday~ Next stop would be Taiwan! =)

   Stay tune for my taiwan trip summary pulak ya! LOL
   Qui for now.. Tata :D

平淡的浪漫

2010-10-30T00:55:00.003+08:00

   原本该在啃书的我，由于头脑有些saturated了，所以打开FB~惯性地打开自己的主页，然后不停地scroll down.最终竟然无聊到去看我和他的wall-to-wall. -.-"

   他还保留着之前我在他的涂鸦墙所写的东西。哈！字里行间，我仿佛又感觉到了当时的甜蜜。注意！是“仿佛”。xD 基于本小姐敢爱敢恨的个性，我的涂鸦墙，甚至是相册里早已把他的留言或标签等删除了。 LOL

   寂寞空虚时，一定会想到的问题就是“如果这段恋情现在还是进行式的话，我俩会是怎样？故事又会怎样发展下去？”。就...errr..我的心情，是非笔墨所能形容的 :P

   得不到的，往往都是自己觉得最好的~所以咯...有两个字可以很贴切的形容我，那就是“犯贱” :P

   时间真的过得很快。都已经一年了 =O

Insomnia xD

2010-10-29T01:44:00.000+08:00

   Yo peeps! Whassup! LOL. Havent updated my blog for almost a month~ Gosh! Dunno wth wrong vit USM wifi connection. Zzzzz.. Screw USM wifi! >.<

   Marathon gonna start now~ Actually it has already started. LOL. Ga yao lor my dearest coursemates! :)

   Today read an article which reminded me of Dub H. Miss euu Dub H :)

   Shall stop writing here and go to bed. Nitez peeps! XOXO

情書

2010-09-24T14:53:00.001+08:00

It's so so touching T.T

灰色河堤

2010-09-23T19:56:00.002+08:00

Came across to this music video accidentally in TV, and since from that day, I've changed my perspective views on this singer. LOL. And YEA! It's indeed a sad song ='(

It's my life =)

2010-09-22T20:03:00.000+08:00

   Yo Yo! Mid sem break sudah habis~ ermmm.. I did plan to turn the past holiday into a fruitful one but eventually.. u noe I noe xD

   Kinda motivated! Recharged liao diok si bo siang ^^

   Jiayou!!!! It's my life and I'm not afraid! :P

Holiday =)

2010-09-12T01:44:00.000+08:00

   Apa yang paling ku suka? Mestilah HOLIDAY! :)
   So far, my holiday has been smooth and relaxing~ LOL. Today was a bit frustrating. Hmm.. Hate being ordered doing this and that! Instead, I like to do chores acording to my rhythm and path~ ><"
   Misunderstanding is now totally solved and yea, I'm happy :) Glad that I still have this beloved old friend with me ^^
   This holiday I have been reading journals and news everyday, and I realised that I've got lots more to be improved >.< Sei fo lor.. There will be a writing test straight after this raya break and frankly, even after reading up so many articles, I still feel that my brain is EMPTY. T.T God bless me!
   Discovered two blogs recently from my 4th year seniors. WOW! What they wrote really amazed me! One got his very own unique views towards Malaysia's politics and another one can write in simple but creative yet proper english! This senior is definitely a humorous and tough guy~ Couldnt help myself stop laughing while reading his blog posts. And I'm touched while reading his post which he dedicated for his mum who's now in heaven.
   Still got one more week to go! and yea, I've promised myself that gonna turn this holiday into a fruitful one! =D

What a night

2010-08-29T03:15:00.000+08:00

The feeling of being misunderstood was really so so bad! U both are my BFF. I do appreciate u both lots.. but now, u look at me like this and scolded me with "wtf"?! To be honest with u, it's hurts. It really hurts. And tears kept flowing down.

I'm damn so stressed out at here. That's it, I quit! My intention, no one will know =(

愚蠢的女孩

2010-08-28T03:40:00.000+08:00

给你

2010-08-18T20:18:00.001+08:00

你，很特殊的一位朋友。跟你，不会说很熟，但似乎又很熟 -.-

你最新的一篇网记，我看了，有点心疼。为什么要自己一个人唱K落泪呢？也许你真的有说不出的苦衷和难处吧！无论如何，身为朋友的我，永远都会支持你！想看电影逛街抑或是唱K，只要我没课而刚好也在槟城的话，我一定奉陪！

加油，小宇！伪装自己一定很累吧，别逞强，适时的时候，放纵一下自己。永远挺你！=)

My Piggy Bestie

2010-08-16T22:16:00.000+08:00

   She left T.T

   Coz of the stupid fever, made me terlupa she was about to leave on 16th of August! Give it a damn! I planned to call her and made her cry geh ma! Ishhhh -.-

   Piggy, please, I beg u, never ever say I bo sim~ Coz I really never tot time really flies like rocket de.. My heart feels damn so empty right now. The feeling is totally the same as the time I broke up T.T

   I miss euu badly babe! Truly, madly and deeply~

   Now whenever I see that spec frame, it reminds me of u. Hmm.. U r such unforgettable.. Gosh! I miss you! ='C

   Even though u kept saying that "it's not like u r not coming back again" but still, I miss u!

   Babe, promise me to take good care of urself k? Eat more and gain more weight! This is an order! Muackz! Miss you, my bestie ever! Enjoy ur life to the max over there =)

修身养性

2010-08-12T02:30:00.000+08:00

   今天，绝对会是我这学期里最后一天的堕落。佃玉莉，你一定要办到！

   怎么搞的？最近身边的情侣都分手了。觉得很是可惜 ><

   最近的口头禅是“事不关己，阿弥陀佛”

   哈！没啥！只是想警惕自己，不要让自己卷入无谓的风波里。

   大家生活要加油！^^

我很喜欢的一篇文章～谢谢安宇的分享

2010-08-10T22:21:00.002+08:00

~~-爱。过了保鲜期-~~

世界上有两件事是永远也勉强不了的，小时候是学习的兴趣，长大了，是爱情。——这，是一面镜子，勇敢放弃，勇敢面对，勇敢重新开始。

当他不再爱你的时候，无论过去他是否爱过后来却忘了，又或者从未爱过，总之，当你无法成为他心里的那个人的时候，他的心便不会记得你，更不会在乎你。

就算他知道你深爱他，偶尔也能感觉得到你的关心，但他宁可装作是不知道。

不爱了的那个人永远是先放得开的，所以，请你也不要折磨自己，痛苦太长时间。

要学会自然，如果你选择坚强接受，你们的结束会被认为是没有缘分，也许在他的心里，还会留下些许的遗憾；可是如果你不够理智，总是想做一些事情挽回这段已经不可能存在的爱情，那么你们的结束只能被他看成是性格不合。

当他不再爱你的时候，请不要在你不开心，或者是遇到麻烦而彷徨的时候去打搅他。

他那儿绝对不是你此刻应该的去处。

也许他会在接到你的电话的时候，淡淡地安慰你几句，并且说衷心祝福你快乐，却也仅此而已。

当他不爱你的时候，你的爱，你的人，就会显得廉价许多。

你占了下风，这是人的本性。

也许你会再想要一点什么，于是说：“我们见一面吧，我们可以一起吃顿饭吗？”如果你以为吃顿饭，见一面就能挽回你失去的爱情，那么你就太错了，太傻了。而他心里也肯定很烦躁了。

他会说：“我现在有点事情，等有机会吧。晚点的时候你再给我电话吧，或者我给你电话也可以。”

而你这时千万不要当真，他只是找了个不是很高明的理由来搪塞你。

请，不要真的去等，不要骗自己，更没有必要伤心。

他的忙碌不会因为你的等待而终止。

生活中很多事情对于他来说都是很重要的，而对于他来说最无所谓的就是逝去的爱情了。

当他不再爱你的时候，请不要与他讲你的琐事，也不要没话找话说，这些是最愚蠢的，也是最无谓的。

也许此刻，善良的你痴情的你不过是希望让彼此更熟悉一些，不要一下子感觉太生疏。

其实你只是暂时过不了自己这一关，他却无暇更是没有兴趣去了解你，你的生活，你的过去，你的长处短处与他又何干？

即使讲了，他也很快会忘记的，就如他忘记曾经对你说过的话一样。

没有爱，注定你挤不进他的生命。

即使，你要的哪怕只是一个很小的角落。

在他眼里，你曾经有过的优点全部都成为一种负累，不会再成为吸引他的理由。

当他不再爱你的时候，不要老给他发短信，问他“好不好”，他如果工作压力大，你的短信只会给他带来烦躁，并不能使他摆脱压力，而他如果真的很好，那么你心里知道就好，学会默默关心并且祝福他吧！

当他不再爱你的时候，不要再回忆你们曾经有过的热烈拥抱和深情的吻了，那样只会让你更不能自拔，过去的就是过去了，更不要傻到家的跟他要求再吻你一次吧，再抱你一下可以吗？

因为这个拥抱这个吻不会有足够的魔力让他重新爱上你，他即使出于不好拒绝你的原因让你吻过抱过之后，你们注定还是要分开，何必要让不再爱你的他为难，而自己更加舍不得离开他呢？

还有，偶尔你的梦里也许还会出现他的身影，千万不要给他电话或是E-mail告诉他，你会被认为太不成熟。即使梦里真的出现了他，也是很正常的，试着给自己点时间慢慢遗忘吧，别对自己太苛刻！！

当他不再爱你的时候，请不要在他的面前伤心难过，更不要流泪，因为眼泪实在是换不回爱情的，倒会让他更小看你了。

不要在生病的时候告诉他你很难过，学会自己照顾自己吧。

他实在没有过多精力给予你照顾和关心，甚至只是同情一下。

请骄傲的你，不要放弃本来属于你的骄傲。

太多的人，在爱的面前迷失了太多，连重新站起来的勇气都没有，何来骄傲？

只是，要永远记得，只有愿意也可以为自己付出真爱的人，才可以真正的去疼惜你，而不是旁观的同情、怜悯。

不要对他说“只要你开心我就开心”，这句话在他爱你的时候还显得挺情真意切，一旦分开了，这样的话，即使仍然出自于你的真心，也会让他觉得你给他压力，何必这样逼一个你曾经爱的人呢？

幸福是靠自己把握的，不要寄托在任何人的身上，明白吗？

当他不再爱你的时候，你的爱便是他的负担。

请不要去计算自己曾经的付出，不要希望有什么回报，更不要再有意无意再次流露出你对他的留恋和不舍，因为一切早已经成为过去时。

爱着不爱自己的人，本身便是没有回报的，不能计较对与错，这样会快乐些。

要记住，你与他之间的爱，是单方面的，你有心，他无心。

但是，也不要责怪他，因为也许他曾经真的爱过你，也想做好一些，对你不要那样的冷漠，他也不想要这样的结局。

只是，爱一个人，对一个人好，本来就是一种能力。

对不起，他也许有这样的能力，只是你们的相爱本身就是一场没有结局的错误，他的能力实在不能够浪费在你的身上，尝试着原谅他吧。

当然，也别太悲观的认为他曾经的爱不是真的，他曾经的诺言是假的，人活着本来就不容易，何况还要去选择爱和不爱呢？

人与人之间本来就应该多一些理解，何况还是你曾经深爱过的他呢？

当他不再爱你的时候，不要整天想着你们之间到底怎么了，拿什么拯救你们的爱情，因为你们之间的距离已经疏远到他站在你面前，却不知道你有多爱他。

你站在他面前，却已经不敢说你爱他。

这样的爱还有被拯救的必要吗？

请不要因为他说你们性格不合而失去自信，也许你的性格确实不适合他，但是这并不能证明你不是一个好人，总会有一个喜欢你的性格的一个人为你而生，为你而活，为你而奋斗终生。

爱一个人，也并非因为他的优秀，而只是一种感觉。

你曾经让他有过这样的感觉，于是他曾经爱上你。

同样，他不爱你，也并非你不再优秀。优秀与否，真不是爱与不爱的理由，看看还有那么多爱自己的人，淡淡地微笑一下，找回自己的信心吧，我们还有很多的事情需要带着信心去做，爱情不是唯一，不是生命的全部。

当他不再爱你的时候，你会经常的无意中就走到了你们曾经一起去过的地方，看到的身边的每一个人都似乎是他的身影，每一对情侣都有可能勾起你对过去的眷恋；你会经常想起他为你而唱的歌，这时候，你准会有想哭的感觉，请学会坚强好吗？

一个人的时候，千万不要用酒精和烟来麻醉自己，因为那不应该是一个好人选择遗忘的方式，如果他知道了，不会心疼，反而庆幸没有继续爱你这样一个人。

你可以听听你们曾经一起唱过的歌，可以尽情的流流泪，但是千万不要傻到把那首歌设置成你的手机铃声，因为他很可能不会再给你电话了，何必在其它无关的人面前展露自己最真实也最脆弱的一面呢，人总是要学会坚强的。

把自己心中的郁闷都发泄出来，明天又是崭新的一天。

请不要因为你们曾经拥有过的欢乐和美好回忆就想到“永远”，记住：爱是没有永远的。

你此刻深爱，就注定遥远的某一天不能再爱他，也不再爱他，他只是比你早一步到达了这一天。

当他不爱你的时候，请轻轻拥抱一下回忆里的温暖，轻柔地凝视凋谢的温柔。

虽然他劝过你回忆过去是没有意义的，要看到未来，你却可以拥有回忆和不回忆的权利和自由，也许随着时间的推移，你会发现，他也并非是你心目中的那般完美，他也是一个普通的人。

那么那个时候，你会顺其自然的选择遗忘一切的回忆，说明你真的长大了，真的成熟了，要相信自己！！

那时候，你可能还会庆幸自己这段注定没有结局的爱夭折了，未来的生活毕竟更重要，人不能把自己一生的幸福当作赌注。

当他不再爱你的时候，亲爱的，请你深深呼吸，一生的路上，铺满了爱的花蕾，总有那么一朵属于你，不是安慰你。

而是因为很多事情都是早已经注定的，就像佛说前辈子你们回眸了五百次才换得一场短暂的相识，可是缘分还不够，所以能够给你们的只有一百天的爱情。

也不要自欺欺人的想象着并且希望着下辈子你们能够在一起，因为谁心里都知道这一辈子才是实实在在的，所以我们都要好好生活，好好珍惜自己身边的一切，不要留下任何的遗憾。

如果你知道曾经爱过的他能够幸福开心，那么一切都足够了，即使他不再爱你又有什么关系呢，为了他，你也要快乐。

当他不爱你的时候，不要在别人面前说他的不好，尤其是你们共同的朋友，因为他还有继续爱别人的权利，还需要他的社交圈，表现得豁达一点吧，毕竟他是你曾经爱过的人。

当他不爱你的时候，也一定要祝福他，并且一定要真心，不计得失。

在能够帮助他的时候，还是像以前一样大方吧，不要吝啬。

有了爱，便不该有恨。

爱是美好的，恨却是残忍的。

何必让生命中最美好的东西化作伤害呢？

也一定不要觉得不公平。关于分开和遗忘，你们之间已经不公平了，他放弃和失去的的是一个如此爱他的人，而你只是失去了一个不能再爱你的人，却得到了一个重新生活的机会。

相比起来，你不是更幸福一些吗！！

要相信时间可以让一切褪色，祝福所有真心付出过，爱过的朋友们：永远幸福！

有时候我们喜欢一个人,都不知道是不是因为自己太寂寞......因为寂寞，爱情也就变得很容易，而且容易得像玻璃一样破碎不堪。

此文献给在青涩年华爱过与被爱的人

-Copyright reserved by AunYee ^^"-

Review of Ah Boy's Life

2010-08-09T00:05:00.000+08:00

   Saje-saje went and cut my hair into boy cut. And coursemates started calling me ah boy, I felt it was darn warmth and seriously, I lurf it!

   Being ah boy is not easy. Gotta be tough! And I guess I havent well prepared for that. Anyway, I will improve on that.

   Ah boy this name is being well promoted in FB, till now some of my hometown buddies also calling me so. rfrf xD

   Despite I was having fun for being called ah boy in the past two weeks, now I would like to be low profile again. I would not talk much and yell much, wanna be a simple yet happy me, no matter what gender I am =)

   Life's goes on! ^^

Noob!

2010-07-23T22:53:00.000+08:00

相同的问题

相同的表情

显！

很烦！

不想再答了

所以

求你们别再问了

很想把自己藏起来

连影子

一并藏起

要死

2010-07-23T19:41:00.000+08:00

新的学期，新的希望 xD

Lame到死

时间表pack到要死

忙到要死

最后

累到要死

又再被讨论

为什么

人类就是那么八

kepo到要死

很想叫你们都去死

因为你们真的讨厌到要死

可以不要酱kepo吗

周末

空虚到要死

我不喜欢周末

更讨厌周日><

男生

花心到要死

才甩了一个

又想泡另一个了

-.-

Sorry

2010-07-15T00:19:00.000+08:00

  Today saw him in the lecture hall. Man, I felt extremely guilty! ><

   Whole day study mood, GONE! Totally GONE! I kept on thinking why things would turn into this kind of situation.

   Ironically, the whole world still know nothing about it. Dunno I should laugh or cry over it >.<

   Whenever I saw his year's coursemates, I felt shame on myself. I dare not even look at them. Totally bu gan!

   Haiz.. I wish someone could just say "ni zou kai" to me.. Why? Me myself pun tak tau.. -.-

I'm back! =)

2010-07-06T00:09:00.000+08:00

Teeeheeee! I'm back! YES! Still kicking! =)

Hmmm... I've been lepak here and there for my holidays.. Kekez! And for the very 1st time, had a quite funny photo shooting session with Dalton, Bryan and Sherlynn. Through that, I learned that it's not easy to be a model xD Ahahaha! I'm not trying to show off or what, but seriously, it's not easy.. U'll keep sweating throughout the session man even the day is not very sunny!~ Huishh~~ and in the 2 hours time, I think I sweated like a pig.. LMAO

  It was a very messy me in the photo shooting day coz the time the 2 photographers reached my home downstairs and gave me a call, I've just climbed out from my lovely warm mattress. And I used only 15 minutes to wash out myself! Gosh! My mum said "unbelievable my lovely daughter, U'd just spent 15 min huh? UNBELIEVABLE!" Okay mummy, stop zat me k? even myself oso tak boleh believe my eyes la when the clock strikes at 8.50am while the time I woke up was 8.35am. Hahaha! Gao giak paiseh nia when sherlynn's mum asked me "have u washed ur hair".. sadly, NO! LMAO!

  Before the photo shooting day, I lived 3 days in worries. Mum got anaemia and doctor wanna her to admit hospital terus on the day she get her blood test's report back. T.T

  I accompanied her throughout the night. I'm freaked out man! Whole night couldnt sleep well..Luckily the very next day, mum looks healthier and pinkish a bit edi. Relieved ^^

But actually worries havent over yet.. Still got an appointment to make on the coming 19th, hopefully the blood test would show a positive result~ *cross my fingers*

God bless my beloved mum! =)

黑色柳丁

2010-06-07T13:10:00.003+08:00

今天我心情有一点怪怪

可是说不出到底为什么

好像有一点悲哀的徵兆

可是病因不知道

头上有橘色的加州阳光

我的口袋只有黑色的柳丁

我只有一个蓝色的感觉

不要问我为什么

很想说但又感觉没有话好说

我只恨我自己逃不出这监狱

或许我是个没有出息的小虫

不该一直作梦你不是个英雄

叶子用坠落证明换季

可我昏昏沉沉没有办法醒

你愿意做个英雄

还是你会要放弃

天是亮的却布满乌云

所有焦距被闪光判了死刑

你想做什么英雄

我看你不过是佣兵

我只想哭只想哭只想哭

今天一起床我就头痛

不管吃了几瓶药都没有用

心情有一点莫名的焦躁

你离我越远越好

外面有橘色的加州阳光

我却躲在自己孤独的黑洞

我只有一个小小的要求

就是请你leave me alone

我只想哭只想哭只想哭

死亡

2010-06-07T11:30:00.000+08:00

是对是错我没把握

有时候

真的很累

朋友

如果哪天

我意外地死去

请不要设立悼念网页予我

对我来说

毫无意义

我不是消极

只是对死亡

并没有太大的恐惧

它只是一个人生必经的过程

在我们出生的那一刻

也开始步向死亡

生命无常

把握当下

爱与不爱

2010-06-06T22:25:00.000+08:00

在这半年里

寂寞时会想你

伤心时会想你

无助时会想你

孤单时会想你

为什么还是会想你

因为再也没有人可以让我忆起

没有喜欢了

只是会习惯性地想你

有时候

会很讨厌这样的自己

但这就是我

我学会接受

曾经以为

和你可以一直的走下去

过程中

我体会了什么是真正的恋爱

结局？我不介意了

节奏体贴关心

我要的一切一切

你都具备了

可惜

我并不是你要找的那个人

什么时候

才可以再度找到

感觉对的人？

Sorryyyyyy

2010-06-05T17:06:00.000+08:00

   Yesterday was a very geli day! Too many messages I've received.. All lazy reply.. Afterall, the reason I gave is "sorry ya, no credit", "sorry ya, the time u texted me, I edi in my dreamland.".. LoLx.. Very "cheh", 7 people texted me, I just replied one. I really sick of texting de life le.. C'mon, gimme a break k? -.-

   Again, being said that "all the things related to u are complicated". Yo!! That's kinda hurt man! :'(

   Then the stupid terrence 揭我疮疤. I hate you! Sei zai bao!

   What a day!

   Sorry ya, if u r one of those I bo reply de ppl. I'm just too lazy..

   Guys, wont u feel that the more u text, the more void u feel? xD

Nice mail =)

2010-05-30T22:07:00.001+08:00

TRUST is a very important factor for all relationships. When trust is broken, it is the end of the relationship. Lack of trust leads to suspicion, suspicion generates anger, anger causes enmity and enmity may result in separation.

A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, 'Public Utilities Board.' There was silence. She repeated, 'PUB.' There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she Heard a lady's voice, 'Oh, so this is PUB. Sorry, I got the number from my Husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is.'

Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered with just 'hello' instead of 'PUB'.

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NO POINTING FINGERS

A man asked his father-in-law, 'Many people praised you for a successful marriage. Could you please share with me your secret?'

The father-in-law answered in a smile, 'Never criticize your wife for her shortcomings or when she does something wrong. Always bear in mind that because of her shortcomings and weaknesses, she could not find a better husband than you.'

We all look forward to being loved and respected. Many people are afraid of losing face. Generally, when a person makes a mistake, he would look around to find a scapegoat to point the finger at. This is the start of a war. We should always remember that when we point one finger at a person, the other four fingers are pointing at ourselves.

If we forgive the others, others will ignore our mistake too.

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CREATING PERFECT RELATIONSHIPS?

A person visited the government matchmaker for marriage, SDU, and requested 'I am looking for a spouse. Please help me to find a suitable one.' The SDU officer said, 'Your requirements, please.' 'Oh, good looking, polite, humorous , sporty, knowledgeable, good in singing and dancing. Willing to accompany me the whole day at home during my leisure hour, if I don't go out. Telling me interesting stories when I need companion for conversation and be silent when I want to rest.' The officer listened carefully and replied, 'I understand you need television.'

There is a saying that a perfect match can only be found between a blind wife and a deaf husband, because the blind wife cannot see the faults of the husband and the deaf husband cannot hear the nagging of the wife. Many couples are blind and deaf at the courting stage and dream of perpetual perfect relationship. Unfortunately, when the excitement of love wears off, they wake up a and discover that marriage is not a bed of roses. The nightmare begins.

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NO OVERPOWERING

Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case. There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that 'It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character.'

It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.

It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations..

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RIGHT SPEECH

There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that 'A speech will either prosper or ruin a nation.'Many relationships break off because of wrong speech. When a couple is too close with each other, we always forget mutual respect and courtesy. We may say anything without considering if it would hurt the other party.

A friend and her millionaire husband visited their construction site. A worker who wore a helmet saw her and shouted, 'Hi, Emily! Remember me? We used to date in the secondary school.' On the way home, her millionaire husband teased her, 'Luckily you married me. Otherwise you will be the wife of a construction worker.' She answered,' You should appreciate that you married me. Other wise, he will be the millionaire and not you.'

Frequently exchanging these remarks plants the seed for a bad relationship. It's like a broken egg - cannot be reversed.

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PERSONAL PERCEPTION

Different people have different perception. One man's meat could be another man's poison. A couple bought a donkey from the market. On the way home, a boy commented, 'Very stupid. Why neither of them ride on the donkey? 'Upon hearing that, the husband let the wife ride on the donkey. He walked besides them. Later, an old man saw it and commented, 'The husband is the head of family. How can the wife ride on the donkey while the husband is on foot?' Hearing this, the wife quickly got down and let the husband ride on the donkey.

Further on the way home, they met an old Lady. She commented, 'How can the man ride on the donkey but let the wife walk. He is no gentleman.'

The husband thus quickly asked the wife to join him on the donkey. Then, they met a young man. He commented, 'Poor donkey, how can you hold up the weight of two persons. They are cruel to you.' Hearing that, the husband and wife immediately climbed down from the donkey and carried it on their shoulders.

It seems to be the only choice left. Later, on a near row bridge, the donkey was frightened and struggled. They lost their balance and fell into the river. You can never have everyone praise you, nor will everyone condemn you. Never in the past, not at present, and never will be in the future.

Thus, do not be too bothered by others words if our conscience is clear..

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BE PATIENT

This is a true story which happened in the States. A man came out of his home to admire his new truck. To his puzzlement, his three-year-old son was happily hammering dents into the shiny paint of the truck. The man ran to his son, knocked him away, hammered the little boy's hands into pulp as punishment. When the father calmed down, he rushed his son to the hospital.

Although the doctor tried desperately to save the crushed bones, he finally had to amputate the fingers from both the boy's hands. When the boy woke up from the surgery & saw his bandaged stubs, he innocently said, 'Daddy, I'm sorry about your truck.' Then he asked, 'but when are my fingers going to grow back?' The father went home & committed suicide.

Think about this story the next time someone steps on your feet or u wish to take revenge. Think first before u lose your patience with someone u love. Trucks can be repaired.. Broken bones & hurt feelings often can't. Too often we fail to recognize the difference between the person and the performance. We forget that forgiveness is greater than revenge.

People make mistakes. We are allowed to make mistakes. But the actions we take while in a rage will haunt us forever.

'Good Life starts only when you stop wanting a better One'

'Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away '

29052010

2010-05-29T22:02:00.008+08:00

   该持什么立场？

  从暧昧到现在，你都有告诉我。也许没来得太突然，所以我接受。

   如今，情况不同了。今晚，跟你妈聊了那么一下下，我完全感受到你妈的语气，那绝非是一般的反对。她那坚定的语气，根本不可能会有妥协的余地，让我真的很替你担心。这毕竟是你的初恋。

   宝贝，我好久都没见你落泪了。今早，看到你啜泣时，我真的愣住了。很是心疼你，但路是你自己选的，既然你选择了接受他，就应该早有心理准备会面对今天这局面的吧？

   也许你不想我和H把事态看得太严重，我总觉得你在向我们叙述事态的严重性时，你是有所保留的。因为一开始在听了你的叙述后，我尚觉得还有机会继续发展你和他的情感。但是现在...~我只希望你可以今早放下他。

   会慢慢释怀的吧！老套地套句，时间会冲淡一切～加油，宝贝！

×今天，伤疤再度被揭开。人生，真的不可留下任何污点，即使当你认为众人已开始把你的罪行逐渐淡忘，其实并不然。记录大概真的很重要吧！我彻底后悔了。悲伤结局收场每段情感，虽然大多是我做的决定，但也不是我所愿意的，但没人会了解。反正在众人眼里，大家早已把我定位在“是个永远都不会认真经营感情的人”的位置上了。

以为自己已经习惯别人异样的眼光

原来其实我还是
在乎的

爸爸妈妈 =(

2010-05-26T22:00:00.001+08:00

   三恩：佛恩，亲恩，众生恩。

   除此，我还想增添一项，师恩。

   五月份，是感恩月。认真想想，爸妈真的给了我很多：衣食无忧的生活，更不曾为学费担忧。之前，爸向我借了六千块，做投资用途。回想起当时去银行领钱时，心中是多么的不愿意啊！其实自己根本没资格要回那笔钱。中学的补习费，何止这个数目？爸，对不起！我不会再提起这六千块，因为它根本微不足道！曾经让你失望的我，已经在慢慢的成长了！我爱您，爸爸！

   妈妈，为我流过最多眼泪的人，也是我伤过最深的人。妈妈，对不起。女儿欠您太多太多的对不起了。渐渐长大的自己，即便做错事，让妈妈伤心了，再也不会说对不起。我知道这很不应该。其实，就一句简单的“对不起”，真的有那么难以启齿吗？！对不起，妈！

Loop-Doop, loop-doop =D

2010-05-25T11:06:00.002+08:00

   Just back from dental appointment, next station, Poh's clinic -.-

   Stupid cough, still cant get rid from it! Arghh! Flu is coming back~ Oh Gosh! Immune system is getting worse and worse~ Lame!

Left one more scaling appointment to go! And I'll be done with Goh Dental Surgery! Buh-bye!

    Neighbour came back jor! LoLx! And Ilman is coming back soon as well! Welcome back, dudess! ^^"

    This friday to sunday, my schedule is fully booked by my babe. xD

    *Oppss.. Looks like quite a lot of ppl coming back this week wor*

~~~Love Life~~~

~Love Sharon~

拔牙记 xD

2010-05-20T11:37:00.001+08:00

   Weird neh~ I'm still trying my very hard to get use to toothless moment~ LoLz~ Today extracted my very 1st tooth~ Woohooo! No pain at all coz got LA mer~ Kakaz! But after one hour, I start to feel pain pain le~ T^T

   ♫ Live like we're dying ♫

   Oh my oh my~ but just as what Dr. Goh said, mei li jiu yao fu chu dai jia~ xD

   Cant wait for 2nd of June to come~ Yeahhhhhhh!!!!!! Braces, here I come!

幸福百分百

2010-05-18T22:25:00.000+08:00

~~对不起谢谢~~

好想念榴莲哦！什么时候哥哥才愿意买回来给我吃啊？今天想套妈妈的话，但是被她拆穿了。哈！没辙，姜始终还是老的辣嘛！对啊，我是很想吃，虽然嗓子还没恢复。I think should be ok ba if I keep "sai nai" to her. xD

~~我是个身在福中不知福的小孩。是时候要学会感恩了。~~

~~我有疼爱我的家人，一大群很要很要好的朋友，人生莫过于如此了 ^^~~

白月光

2010-05-13T20:09:00.002+08:00

~~你是我不能言说的伤想遗忘又忍不住回想像流亡一路跌跌撞撞~~

      他，始终还是会像梦魇般出现。好累。打从考试期间开始，每晚睡觉都会做梦，即使是两个小时的睡眠时间，也是会做梦。脑袋似乎都没真正休息。一开始以为是压力造成的，结果现在情况始终还是没改善。>_<

      听了很多关于你负面的评语，其实，还是会感到微微的心疼。好玩，就是你的态度。什么时候才会定下性来呢？家境富有，再加上父母的宠溺，引致你衣食无忧。我再也没资格劝说你了，希望你会有觉醒的一天。^_^

Post exam Mania

2010-04-30T12:11:00.000+08:00

   Yea Yea~ Exam is over! 1st year saya sudah habis~ Wakaka! Time really Fliessssssssss....

   Since just now eh midnight, I edi kept thinking of Dua Ban, Ee Mee~ Owhhhh~ Craving for Dua Ban and Ee Mee~ xDDD

Again, I screwed up today's paper~ Haa! As expected, coz semalam totally bo sim tak chek~ Cham nia~

    Unbelievable, I missed my buibui sis these few days~ Haha! Wait for me, ah bui! I'm gonna fight with u before u back KL~

   Lalalalalaalala~ My mood is very Good! Super duper Gooooooooodd!! WHY har? Coz EXAM IS OVER! =P

   I'm going to write a long long post about all my beloved friendsss, AGAIN~ Kakaz~ Stay tuned~ =P

C' Mon

2010-04-29T19:18:00.000+08:00

Break break break! Fast fast come! Hahaha! Semalam didnt really have the mood to study, kept on FB-ing nia~ xDDD

I miss all my friendsssss~~ T^T

Fast fast break, I wanna go home meet all my beloved friends~ Kakazz!! Dosage Form I huh? I shall conquer u by 2nite, or perhaps, tomorrow morning? LoLz~

Bless me =D

Hurt so bad~ LoLz~

2010-04-24T13:48:00.000+08:00

   ~又被我搞砸了又被我搞砸了~

   打从上个星期四，就一直在哼唱这首歌。今天的试卷，就正好可以用这两句来概括。噢买尬！本来还以为会有希望，结果今天酱一考，什么都ki liao liao～>.<

   ~我受了重伤已不再对化学渴望~

下星期，我势必要扭转局势！加油！（难得我这学期那么有考试mood xD)

=.=

2010-04-23T14:05:00.001+08:00

   Mind a mind~ Work harder can a? Beh tahan liao~ keep thinking those yang I SHOLDNT think~ When can only the nerve can innervate my brain thoroughly, completely? As well as my heart. I guess in I'm lack of beta 1 receptors, abo how come my heart cant pump at a faster rate? Where's is the xin tiao de gan jue? >.<

   Recently start getting close with CcTeo again. LoLz~ He always zo siao, made me siao also. Cham nia~ LoLz~ 2 words for u, stupid ass! xD

  3 down, 5 more to go! Add oil, GL!

15042010

2010-04-17T14:29:00.003+08:00

    “Yu Li, I know we both have 1 thing in common, that is we have a very tough heart.”. Wow! This sentence made me feel touched sia~ Hahaha! Yea, I should let go those what doesn’t belong to me. Duck, you succeed jor, in making me have the courage to text CH again. Hee.. Thanks dude!
    I got a very funny experience, still experiencing it now. Those bad-behaved seniors are kinda close with me. Perhaps Howand was right, I got a a variety kind of friends, a wide range. U seeking for nerds? Definitely got. Lenglui lengzai? Got got. Pai kia? Hahaha! A lot!
    Yesterday thought of Daddy. I texted him, thinking he might be having study week as well, ma wrote “+$” lor~ LoLz. Zhe shi wo men de an hao! Shhh.. He said I’m noob coz got his gene~ Zzzz. Cincai lar.. Noobie daddy born noobie daughter~ LoLz.. Don’t be scared lar daddy, I’m sure u n mummy will stay sweet forever de. Kakaz!

伪装

2010-04-17T14:28:00.002+08:00

    虽没说很喜欢，但始终还是不甚愿意和他人分享。占有欲作祟吧！心在纠结，却依然装得落落大方。我怎么了？大概是，演技进步了。

    伪装，是人生必备的生存工具。在陌生人面前，你得装出大方得体；父母教训你时，虽然有万分的不愿意，你还是装作洗耳恭听，唯唯诺诺：在朋友面前，当他们在高谈阔论性课题，虽然你内心尴尬，但还是得装作很兴奋，好high,和他们一起谈论。哈！这就是伪装的人生。

    伪装，没啥不好。只是一旦伪装太久，你会渐渐地失去自我，很难再展露自己的真性情。适时卸下心防，放开你的头脑，将所有顾虑置诸脑后，痛痛快快的干一杯，哭一场！

～别人笑我太疯癫，我笑他人看不穿～

糟透

2010-04-05T10:00:00.001+08:00

糟透的感觉

又来袭

尽头
应该就在不远处

这个时候

这个气氛

这个位置

最终

还是想起了他

为什么？

从一开始

明明就知道

会是这结果

却还是

爱得

毫无保留

为什么？

每每想起你

心口

还是温热的

嘴角

更是会上扬

是什么

让我眷恋

让我执着

没有答案

原来
心口仍然

保留你的位置

爱的故事

2010-04-02T14:47:00.000+08:00

星的光点点洒于午夜

人人开开心心说说故事

偏偏今宵所想讲不太易

迟疑地望你想说又复迟疑

秋风将涌起的某夜

遗留她的窗边有个故事

孤单单的小伙子不顾寂寞

徘徊树下直至天际露月儿

冬风吹走几多个月夜

为何窗边的她欠缺注视

刻于窗扉小子写的爱慕字

完全没用像个飘散梦儿

今宵的小伙子倾吐憾事

谁人痴痴的要再听故事

偏偏痴心小子只知道上集

祈求下集是个可爱梦儿

知不知对你牵上万缕爱意

每晚也痛心空费尽心思

这小子欲断难断这故事

全为我爱上你偏偏你不知

春风轻吹点点火花衫月夜

人人开开心心说说故事

终于倾出这小子的往事

长年累月为你怎再自持

今宵知否对你的暗示

为何真的将它当故事

偏偏痴心小子只知道上集

祈求下集是个可爱梦儿

知不知对你牵上万缕爱意

每晚也痛心空费尽心思

这小子欲断难断这故事

全为爱上了你偏偏你不知

知不知每晚想你十次百次

每晚也去等因我极心痴

可不可合力延续这故事

延续这片爱意一生俩相依

知不知对你牵上万缕爱意

每晚也痛心空费尽心思

这小子欲断难断这故事

全为爱上了你偏偏你不知

知不知每晚想你十次百次

每晚也去等因我极心痴

可不可合力延续这故事

延续这片爱意一生俩相依

My 2010's April Fool

2010-04-01T20:10:00.000+08:00

2day, not feeling so well after staying at the damn cold lecture hall for 3 hours plus plus~ Maybe sat for too long edi, when I stood up, really pening >_<

Sei Terrence, text me asking me wanna go for movie with lizard and duck them or not. Damn him! Asked at such a wrong time!! I called coz lazy to text d~ But luckily I couldnt go as well, coz He's going too~ >_<

3rd thing, I think tmrw's quiz, I'm going to die badly in that battle >_<

Okie, wanna get back to work d! Gambateh! ^^"

=X

2010-03-31T00:03:00.000+08:00

I hate these two weeks! Quizzes, sponsorships, now another new issue coming in, roomate!

Gosh! Really eh ki siao 1.. Suan le, I wanna apply for single room d~ No more conflict then. Sick of these interpersonal conflicts.

I wanna cry can ar? But tears could hardly flood out from eyes. I guess tears dry jor =X

Arghhhhhhh!!! Pek chek! I jz wanna get rid from this hell place as soon as possible. Sick of these edi! I surrender!

Meet me halfway

2010-03-30T17:53:00.000+08:00

Ying said "U r at the borderline."

Am I?

Jasper said, "U need to be clear with what u want."

Do I really know what I want?

Oh Gosh! I hate this uncertain feeling~ Come on, gimme a break, U tis stupid pumping heart!

Now, I just wanna be xiao sa and cool. Image?! Leave it behind!

~Can u meet me halfway?~

一种念头

2010-03-29T16:44:00.001+08:00

今早，做了个很不可能的梦

虽然只是个梦，但在梦里的失落感确是很真实

你最近过得好吗？

也许是有那么一点担心你，所以梦见你了。

在梦里，你不开心，甚至还掉泪了。

有点心疼，轻抚了你的头，甚至有想亲吻你的冲动。

但是

有人喝止了我，提醒了我，

我和你

已经是过去式了。

王若琳的《一种念头》不断地在我脑海中回荡

Am I playing with fire?

2010-03-28T21:53:00.000+08:00

Fire~ I'm playing with it, again~ =.="

Kalau kena burnt, itu dipanggil padan muka~

Oh Gosh! I must behave myself le~

Ya, behave urself girl =C

Crazy day!

2010-03-28T05:44:00.004+08:00

Oh Gosh~ It's now 6am!! ^^"

I was actually very very tired le~ But Terrence called, crapped for 1 and a half hour! *FAINT*

We gossiped a lot, summore talked back primary and secondary school time~ Hmm... I miss those time~ Seriously~ Hahaha! My most crazy time ever~ LoLz~ We were wondering how come we would suddenly become so close, but never came to a conclusion. Suan le la~ He kept perli me for get dumped by Chia Hooi. Really sweat nia~ But I guess that's the way we communicate. He said I'm destinied to zat by him for the rest of my life d~ And hor, he said... Yerr! KNS nia la him~ Look down on me and yet taught me those naughty naughty things~ U wait n see la, I shall bring back a dentist for u geh! Hng! LoLz~ In fact, I feel that's kinda a promise that we are going to be korkor and muimui 4eva~ Yo! U rock!! =D

HanCi jio me to go for Liu Xuan's talk~ Oh Gosh! I left these literature literature stuff back behind since form 4 d~ Anyhow, I'm still interested. But too bad, cant go~ Nvm, Dub H, lets go for this coming weekend de show. (Sorry to say, I dunno what's the show about actually. Hahaha! Ask HanCi) Looking forward to see u both soon! C=

This year, I bo participate in Earth Hour~ xD
Sorry Mother Earth~ Blame him blame him!! For abducting me. Haha! No tense at all~ Huisshh~ Kinda relieved... =D

Okie, let's get back to work! =)

荷尔蒙失调

2010-03-27T17:33:00.000+08:00

玉莉

绝非垃圾桶

不要再把苦水向我倒

物满则倾

这道理

你永远不会懂

够了

爱情这一课

我永远都得重考

我不懂

也不会懂

别再请教一个失败者好吗

你这样

很像是在伤口上撒盐

我

荷尔蒙失调了

茫忙盲

2010-03-27T11:47:00.001+08:00

它

失去了

原有的意义光芒

我

没有继续的理由

我们

迷失了

年少轻狂

我

没资格再用

是时候

回到正轨

爱
真叫人

忙盲茫

欲哭无泪

2010-03-27T00:18:00.000+08:00

It's now almost the end of my 2nd sem~ My hell life has just started. I miss my friends truly madly deeply~ My dearsssss, where r u all? Doing good? I'm suffering~ TT

C'mon.. Just give me a short break~ I miss movie time~ TT

我

2010-03-24T03:17:00.001+08:00

明明就想躲开

却还是逃不开

终点?

不!

游戏才刚开始

想抛下一切

什么都不管

我

只想

回到过去

我

只想寻觅

简简单单的玉莉

我

只想

由衷的快乐

我

好想

好好哭一场

把心中的

恐惧焦虑压力

给痛痛快快地哭出来

我

需要呼吸的空间

伪装

逞强

好累人..

The End

2010-03-22T02:46:00.000+08:00

   Yup! It finally comes to an end~ Dont really care whether I've missed a great guy or not, I just scared that in the end, it would end up with nothing. It's ok with me, "pain" is nothing to me now. What I care is him. I dont wish to hurt another guy anymore. If keep on dragging, it would be more harder to quit le~

   Short pain is better than long pain~ LoLz. A coward like me dont have the right to be loved. Single suits me better~ A lengzai like u, deserve a far more better, gorgeous lady~ Long queue of lenglui-s is waiting for u 2 pick~ =D

*Bless you*

KNS!

2010-03-18T23:57:00.002+08:00

Now I'm really so so so beh song! I know u r pretty, gorgeuos, intelligent, but can u please give me a bit bit de respect? Jump ship without informing me.. Walau! U really dong ngo sei ga?

Not the 1st time d~ Whatever lar~ Hopefully next time wont be in the same group with u anymore~ Zzzz~ God bless!

Great news ^^

2010-03-16T20:31:00.002+08:00

He on with the girl edi~ Ccteo said I lost jor, coz she's really pretty~ LoLz~ I know ar, that's why nowadays I've totally lost my self-confidence~ Zzzz.

Whatever lar~ Bless them =)

15032010

2010-03-15T00:19:00.004+08:00

Now feels that my head is very heavy and yet cold~ Zzzz~ Going to bed soon~ =.=

My coursemate helped me think of a new name again, GL= half Gay half Lesbian xD

Yea, single but not available~ LoLz

JJ Lim's Always Online is now my favourite~ Um zai why~ I guess it's the impact from HIM~ Zzz~

When having Poh Li's bfday celebration, I found out a place which is a tou qing's nice spot. xD There de view quite nice and yet the light is dim~ Phewweett! Certainly a hotspot for couple kissing~ xP My next GF, I shall bring u there next time.. LoLz~

Sot QiHann, keep calling me sei gay lou. He's kinda weird seriously. Last time said that I do look innocent at some instances. Now... Speechless =X

I can feel that every1 is changing and now Im feeling void, not from relationship aspect, but kinda feel that I'm a loser =C

I'm scared of rumors. So I must make clear every single things. I'm hoping that all of these will get over soon without anyone knowing. Yea, gonna make this works!

Good9tz everyone C=

Mad TGL

2010-03-14T02:34:00.002+08:00

Yeah! Great! Flu is now friend back with me le~ =.=

Addicted to FB~ So now deactivate for a period of time sin lar~ Rehab rehab~ xD

Ms. C sot jor.. Text me vit a word "Ui", then bo liao.. =__=

Zyphy, new hairstyle wor~ Lengzai wor~ Can I kao u? xD Genting trip I might not be following le, coz most prob I'll got some stuff to do during that month. Sorry ya~

WL and WH get back together d after 3 years of break up~ It was amazing to me! Haa! Congrtaz WL, ur effort eventually paid off! C=

As for me, bo lang ai de ugly duckling.. Pity sia~ Maybe got to melelongkan myself at the pasar there d~ xP

To me, Single suits me the best! I can admire whoever I like, like Kenshee ar, Louis ar, etc.. Can hang out with whoever I want~ Great! =P

Starving neh~ @@

关于爱情的一篇文章 =D

2010-03-11T02:07:00.004+08:00

爱情是追到手的吗？
不是。

真正的感情根本不需要追的。

两个人的默契，在慢慢将两颗心的距离缩短，在无意识中渐渐靠近彼此。

从好朋友到情人，真正的感情是用不了多久的。

从你喜欢上他的那一刻起，也许他也在那一刻喜欢上了你。

同节奏的爱情往往能奏出最和谐最动听的乐章。

真正的爱情需要什么？

需要两个人在一起是轻松快乐的，没有压力。

爱一个人就是毫无保留地付出吗？
不是。

每一个人都是一个独立的人，我们首先是属于自己的，

我们有思想，我们有个性，而不是把我们的全部都给对方。

我们可以有保留，比如你不愿意说的隐私，有秘密的人才是成熟的，不是吗？

有时候不说出来反而更好。

外貌和个性哪个更重要？

男人年轻的时候往往喜欢漂亮的女子，

25岁以后，会选择和自己性格合适的女子，能和自己一起过日子的人。

喜欢一个人，太急切了，反而不好。

一是因为越想得到的越得不到；

二是得到了也很难珍惜，来得快去得也快。

细水长流一些，爱情会更长久。

相爱容易相处难。

相处中最重要的是宽容和妥协，在信任和了解的基础上。

没有宽容和妥协，任何两个人都无法相处。

纯纯的爱也许只有一次，但是真爱未必只有一次。
时间会抚平一切伤痕。

我们其实是可以爱上很多人的。

我们不是喜欢某个人，而是喜欢某种类型的人。

先来的人和我们相遇了，于是我们幸福地走到了一起；

对于后到的人，只能抱以歉意，同时，祝福他早日找到属于他自己的幸福。

没有谁是我们一生非拥有不可的，
爱一个人，很多时候实际上是习惯了这个人。

现实和浪漫哪个更重要？
现实。

没有现实为基础，浪漫就是空中楼阁。

大学校园的爱情往往随着毕业而告终，大多是因为不现实，不在一个城市。

只有相互欣赏相互佩服各有所长的人，才会碰撞出最美丽的火花，也才会结出最甜美的爱情果实。

分手后我们还可以做朋友吗？
最好不要。

剪不断，理还乱。

过去了就过去了，我们不是生活在过去，而是现在。

爱情不等于生活，只是生活的一部分。

不要因为自己长相不如对方而放弃追求的打算，长相只是一时的印象，真正决定能否结合主要取决于双方的性格。

帅哥配丑女，丑女配帅哥的太多了。

恋爱的时间能长尽量长。

这最少有两点好处：一，充分、尽可能长的享受恋爱的愉悦，
二，两人相处时间越长，越能检验彼此是否真心，越能看出两人性格是否合得来。

想知道一个人爱不爱你，

就看他和你在一起有没有活力，开不开心，有就是爱，没有就是不爱爱情不是感动，

你不是他心目中的理想伴侣，即使一时接受你，

将来碰上他心仪的那一位，一样会离开你。

有些人情绪容易大起大落，这样的人是很难维持一段长久的关系的。

浪漫是什么？
是送花？雨中漫步？楼前伫立不去？

如果两人彼此倾心相爱，什么事都不做，静静相对都会感觉是浪漫的。

否则，即使两人坐到月亮上拍拖，也是感觉不到浪漫的。

是否门当户对不要紧，
最重要应该是兴当趣对，不然没有共同语言，即使在一起，仍然会感觉到孤独。

持久的爱情源于彼此发自内心的真爱，建立在平等的基础之上。

任何只顾疯狂爱人而不顾自己有否被爱，
或是只顾享受被爱而不知真心爱人的人都不会有好的结局。

爱情既是风险投资，难免有去无回，失恋是再正常不过的事情。
爱过，就够了。

既然不能在一起，总有不能在一起的理由。

不能因为别人负了你，就不负责任地游戏、报复或是堕落，
自己演的戏，总要自己收场的。

何况，他不爱你，你做什么他都不会在乎。

如果爱上，就不要轻易放过机会。
莽撞，可能使你后悔一阵子；
怯懦，却可能使你一辈子后悔。

没有经历过爱情的人生是不完整的，没有经历过痛苦的爱情是不深刻的。

爱情使人生丰富，痛苦使爱情升华。

你可能习惯与现在的恋人，明明不太喜欢，但在一起久了，习惯使人不太愿做新的选择。

人生会面临无数次选择。当给你机会选择时，你一定要谨慎；

一旦你做出了选择，就永远不要后悔；

拿得起，放得下，该断则断，该忘记的，就把它忘记；

该珍惜的，就要把它珍惜我们总说：
“我要找一个很爱很爱的人，才会谈恋爱。”

但是当对方问你，怎样才算是很爱很爱的时候，你却无法回答他，
因为你自己也不知道。

没错，我们总是以为，我们会找到一个自己很爱很爱的人。

可是后来，当我们猛然回首，我们才会发觉自己曾经多么天真。

假如从来没有开始，你怎么知道自己会不会很爱很爱那个人呢？

其实，很爱很爱的感觉，是要在一起经历了许多事情之后才会发现的。

或许每个人都希望能够找到自己心目中百分之百的伴侣，

但是你有没有想过，在你身边会不会早已经有人默默对你付出很久了，
只是你没有发觉而已呢？

所以，还是仔细看看身边的人吧，
他或许已经等你很久了。

当你爱一个人的时候，爱到八分绝对刚刚好。

所有的期待和希望都只有七八分，剩下两三分用来爱自己。

如果你还继续爱得更多，很可能会给对方沉重的压力，

让彼此喘不过气来，完全丧失了爱情的乐趣。

所以请记住，喝酒不要超过六分醉，吃饭不要超过七分饱，

爱一个人不要超过八分。

如果你也正在为爱迷惘，或许下面这段话可以给你一些启示：

爱一个人，要了解也要开解；

要道歉也要道谢；要认错也要改错；

要体贴也要体谅；是接受而不是忍受；

是宽容而不是纵容；是支持而不是支配；

是慰问而不是质问；是倾诉而不是控诉；

是难忘而不是遗忘；是彼此交流而不是凡事交代；

是为对方默默祈求而不是向对方诸多要求。

可以浪漫，但不要浪费，

不要随便牵手，更不要随便放手。

浪漫的人这样描述与爱人的相逢：
千万人当中，在时间的无涯的荒野里，

没有早一步，也没有晚一步，刚巧赶上了。

两个人好着的时候，你不妨就这样想吧。

如果不好了，你要明白是否和某人在一起，不过是一个再简单不过的概率问题。

数千个擦肩而过中，你给谁机会谁就和你有缘分，纵没有甲，也会有乙。

别傻等那种想像中的木石前盟般的缘分了，生活中哪有那么多传奇。

别醒着做梦了，难道你忘了艺术虽然来源生活，却还高于生活吗

Sienzzzz

2009-11-27T22:14:00.002+08:00

This holiday~ super duper boring~ Haizzzz~~ Everyday wakes up, 1st thing flashes through my mind would be " What to do next?"~ The answer would always be the same, NOTHING! T_T

Somebody save me!!! TGL would die of boredom soon, it would kill her slowly~ Wuhuhuhuhu~

Damn! After entering uni, my life is becoming more dull and dull~ I'm wondering when would the spark go off completely~~ @@

Hostel or home better? Actually, no difference! Home=got free meals, but no happiness, no laughter~ Hostel=no free meals/no meals, but I can do whatever I want, I can go wherever I want, with whoever I like~ Haizzzzzz~ Ambiguous~ A lot of ambiguity~ For a cancer girl, family should always comes 1st, me? HAHAHAHA! Never! Just as what mummy said, I dont really love my family~ Yea, I admit that, but do u ever think of the reason why? Coz of daddy's bad temper!!! Since I know Jay Chou, the 1st song I like was 爸我回来了~ My family doesnt have family violence prob luckily, but then I really pernah thought of bringing my mum and leave this home~ My dad~ Haiz~ I wonder when was the last time I liked him? This holiday, I talked to him for only 1 day, the 1st day I reached home, then bo liao~ My survive mode at home is silent mode, now and always~

I guess a song suits me best,我是一只小小鸟~ I wanted to fly high, but then~~~... What to do?

08102009

2009-10-09T19:48:00.000+08:00

最近开始学坏了～除了statistics，其他课一律都没去上～是有点愧疚啦！不过～～哈哈！其实也只剩化学和statistics而已～那dustbin化学讲师～还是算了吧～不过下星期我又会变回乖乖女了（不过我好像都没乖过，况且不去也不行>.<〕

星期六要学人工呼吸急救，Raya之前学过theory，整整两小时半～要吐血！不仅仅这个，还有测验呢！～真是beh tahan. Now I’m going to attend for the practical session~ 真的有用吗？我不知道～会压断他人的肋骨的leh，yerr..

下星期二和三有presentation～一个subject,四样东西～report, journal, poster presentation, power point presentation~ 现在是两个subjects,八样！做了三个月～从到处分派问卷，再分析，再印海报～神经病！！曾经几度做到我想飙泪～在大学生涯第二次感受“超级无助”的感觉～唉！我要买个绝对男友来帮我听课，考试，煮营养餐给我吃，替我打扫房间～日剧中毒太深

大学生涯，没有很疯狂，没有让我真正有动力的人事物～我只知道自己越来越爱暴饮暴食～不过我和潆的友情重新升温了～这是我很开心的～^ .^

还是较喜欢小班制～在这边，都是大班制的～彼此间没有很深厚的感情～都是一伙一伙的～团结吗？呵呵！说真的，我不知道。话说上星期日，华人代表提议到新关子角那里吃自助餐。那餐～哈哈！感觉上有些人吃得不是很开心咯～人多，意见自然会有分歧。不说了～说说我的感受吧！我一向都是败家女，所以不是很在乎价钱～所以我是吃得心甘命抵的＝〕
那晚，坐跟小鬼，小鬼室友和潆一桌～那两个大男生～十分搞笑～虽说两人都有女朋友，但还是不很了解女人～小鬼问:’你们女生是不是永远都不清楚自己要的是什么?”。我都不懂他在说什么（原谅他啦！他的华语只修到小学程度）。过后他那室友就替他进一步解说，我才明白原来小鬼要问的是“怎么你们女人都爱口是心非？”哈哈～问问夏娃吧！再不然就问上帝 =P

真可惜孝光缺席～要不然可以欺负这可爱的“欠打”。欠打和小鬼，算是我在这里较要好的异性朋友吧。不能太好，一旦太好，谣言又要满天飞了～人言可畏啊～难道就不能让我做个开心单身B咖吗？真不明白，那么爱替我做媒喔？哈哈！拜托，要找也找个身份是纯华人的给我啦！

我呕出来的大象这次真的要来马开唱了～真的落实了～这.......这.....根本就是二度伤害！心如刀割～～Akon, nobody wanna see us 2gether, but it no matter~ I’ll meet u once I get my own financial ability~

02102009

2009-10-03T01:47:00.001+08:00

唉！一脚踏两船的朋友，你知道你自己现在在干嘛吗？
*昨天是我的恋人，今天是我的爱人，明天是离开我的人*～如果有哪天当她男朋友得知自己又再度被甩，我就送他这首歌吧！*问世间情为何物*外面的世界还大着呢，我要慢慢找，皆因囫囵会吞枣～XD

星期二，我爱你！因为星期二再也不用上课噜！回想起这星期二的实验，超搞笑～半夜做草稿，隔天上实验课，程序是清楚，不过理论却毫无概念（因为实在太累，看到理论那一部分，就把书阖上了～很不幸，碰上的是一位华裔研究生）其实我事先就知道这星期会遇上她，但没想到她那么挑～问了一大堆～每每问了一个问题，她就会把她那恳切的眼光投射在我和两位华裔朋友身上～还好其中一位朋友是物理班出身的，所以略懂一二。到了程序那部分，还好本小姐有扫描过，所以勉强过关啦！进行实验时，我犯了一个错误，其实是因为本人高度的问题，再加上实验室的凳子还是不够高，所以我没把仪器上的数字给看清楚，就记录了下来。重点来了，本人很理所当然地在仪器上的三个数字当中，加上了一个小数点～刚好她走过来，看看我书上的reading,再看看仪器上的，接着就很大声的说，“这个没有decimal point!”~~~ 恍然大悟，如梦初醒，吓了三跳～赶快爬上凳子，望一下～hana hor~哈哈！回头向我的组员伸了伸舌头，再缩了缩肩膀，再转回去给了导师一个傻笑，连忙低下头，死命擦那reading~真是有够sia sui廖～我那一bench还有另外一组，都是马马～他们更够力，我猜想大概是没看过manual就来上课了吧！关键的步骤都做错，再不然就是秩序调乱。好戏来了！结果是被骂得狗血淋头。绝不是一次，是五六次～最后更甚，被要求重做～哈哈！我们都在猜，也许她和他们的八字不合，又或许她那天刚好大姨妈登门造访，所以那么躁！深深地寄上我的condolences~为你们的最后一次实验深感悲哀～大家，默哀三分钟！

中秋节快乐！月圆人团圆，我不要脸圆圆！＝P

黑眼圈超深，真不明白是怎么一回事！睡眠时间，算很够了嘛～黑眼圈，远离我吧！ T.T 我要运气！运气运气，到我这儿吧！

T1$ hOL1d@Y

2009-09-27T01:47:00.003+08:00

Yo~ Holidays~~ Ended lu~ Still left few more hours to go~ kakaz~
This holiday huh? Hmm~
1) Quarrelled vit my sis, now still cold war-ing~ >.<
2) BBQ vit friends, and it was indeed a great gathering! Thx Hanci~ Muackz!!
3) Visited Pn Fazilah~ Hoho~ she had forgotten my name apparently~ I was lazy to mention my name too~ So the visit ended vit "teacher still couldnt rmb my name"~ wat so ever la~ the amazing part was even she had forgotten my name, bt still she could realise tat my face has become "tembam" edi >.< yerr~ wanna diet d la~
4) My most fav. partner, Howand~ LOL~ Hmm~ I like to talk crap vit u~ dunno y oso~ Future lawyer, God bless ya^^ Lengzai jor wor~ Hehe~ Ei, try 2 consider Aun Yee's and my suggestion la, DJ DJ??!! Kakaz!
5) Wilson hide my wallet~ wanna tell u tat~ THX la~ ^^Bt den actually i put on the sofa PURPOSELY 1~ bukan i 4get la~ Dun wry~ I jz gt my lesson 3 weeks ago~ 4 sure wont repeat the mistake again geh~ I promise!!
6) PB's JPN is suckzzzzzzzzzz!! I'd been there for 3 times~ 3 TIMES!~ Wat the staffs there told me was, "sry la~ server down~ kite orang pun tak boleh buat apa-apa pun~ kite dah report dah, tapi masih macam tu~" Haih~ Lousy Government~ Geram liao~ At last korkor fetch me 2 Jawi's JPN to make my new IC~ Within 15 min, all settled and no fines at all~ Hoho! My RM 50 is safe~"Hargailah My-Card anda" XD
7) Havent finish reading my " Rich dad, Poor dad"~ Hmm~ After exam ba~ >.<
8) Oh ya~ the last gathering I had was the 1 vit KY, Anthony, Terrence and Lizard~ I miss them so so much~ Especially Terrence, my korkor~ kekez~ Nice gathering~ Keep "washing" me~ Sobz~ LOL~ Jk la~ I didnt take tat siao anthony's words seriously pun~ As wat he said, he n i are jz 2 close d~ V used to communicate by "washing" each other~ U R FAT!! =P
This holiday, I have settled down my mood and mind~ NOW, TGL IS READY TO FIGHT FIGHT AND FIGHT~ ^_____^

1/2 happiness + 1/2 sadness

2009-09-19T21:32:00.003+08:00

Wat a failure~ these few days~ I did ntg~ really NTG!!~ FB, sleep, eat, watch tv, talking crap, no more~ Shit! Cant keep on like tis~ Hmm.. After tis, I'm going to finish my " Rich dad, poor dad"~ my physio report and den my stupid H1N1 assign~ Yerr~ tat assign~ time consuming and yet learn ntg frm it~ Till now I still tak faham why lecturer will assign tis stupid task to us~ somemore it's 2 assigns tim ar~ really mou ngan tai~

Hoho!! 2day my 2nd sis came back home, vit her 4 kids~ 1st time, my nephew asked me to bathe her~ OMG! I was shocked bt den felt happy la of coz~ Haharx =P

Tat Tzu-Chi camp, I didnt go~ Maybe i dunhav fate in participating tat religious organisation~ Haiz~

Sad + Happy = Moooooooodyyyy~ >.<

Tis Week ><

2009-09-12T17:40:00.000+08:00

这星期，过着皮笑肉不笑的生活~可以说，我每天都尝试在忘却，很努力很努力~想要忘却无名的压力，想要宣泄心中的不满和不悦，但总找不到出口~是的，忙忙碌碌，为了什么？美好的前程？并不然。即使很茫然，但是还是尽全力把功课做好~
遗失钱包，很是彷徨~很久都没尝试脑袋一片空白的感觉~求助无门，真的很无奈~也忘了当天流了多少汗水，就为了一个钱包~姐姐的提醒，妈妈的安慰，desmond的载送，伟权的帮忙，都让我感到暖暖的~冷静以后，发觉之中夹杂着太多太多的幸运了～原本前一晚想要把五十令吉放进钱包里，但过后还是抽了出来～前一天有想过要把学生证放进去，但过后因觉得麻烦，所以没那么做～算是幸运了
在这里，始终找不到可以谈心的朋友~真的很辛苦。感觉上大家都各怀心事，讲话都话中有话。是的，为了让日子好过一些，我是戴着面具做人的～即使不喜欢，还是得这样。
朋友说我不定性，其实不用他说，我很早就深知肚明。所以我也不敢再触碰感情～喜欢一个人，又是为了什么？对于以前的我而言，大概就是安抚心灵的空虚～现在的我，再也找不到理由去爱～
太多的为什么，太多的不确定，太多的不喜欢，导致自己越来越神经质，越来越情绪化。真的很不很不喜欢这样的自己～我想我需要停下脚步，想想看下一步该怎么走，自己的下一个目标是什么，再前进～但是残酷的功课，根本不允许我有停下脚步的时间～最终，我选择盲目的生活～随着感觉走，有时需有一点点的自律，对目前的我而言，就已足够。
突然想起一句话，以平常心看待一切～如果失去抑或是得不到某样东西，失落感才不会那么强烈，自己也会好过些～课业上，这句话用不得。其他方面，我想我需要与自己共勉之。

Review

2009-08-31T02:19:00.002+08:00

Last friday, went to QB by myself, jz to watch " Laughing Gor". At 1st, I was planning to watch " Orphan" as well, but then after checking on GSC's website, den only i realised tat there was no "Orphan" showing on tat day~ Dissapointed~ Bt still I went there at last.

Laughing Gor is indeed a nice movie~ I like the synopsis. Bt not a very good ending. I Love You, Beth Cooper wasnt as nice as wat I had expected. Instead, it sucks. Wat a Rubbish movie! Haiz. My RM8 gone!

The next day, saturday, went QB again. Bt tis time it's with my dear, Min Yan. Met up her and my beloved teacher there. My dear get her hair cut, RM65, which i felt it's damn expensive, bt den it's nice! Worth la at least! hehe! No more Xtreme to myself as I cant afford tat price~ V bought 2 same rings~ It meant a lot 2 me~ I guess I can look at the ring whenever I miss her. kekez~

Physio and Microbe's quizzes, haiz~ mou ngan tai lo~ >.< Most probably I'll fail~ Gosh~
God blessed!

I'm going to attend a camp organised by Tzu-Chi, mummy seems doesnt believe tat I would join suh a religious organisation by myself~ I'm lazy to explain to her. But I guess I know what I'm expecting to get from this organisation. Since primary school, Still Thoughts affected me a lot. Till now, whenever I start hating someone, I'll use one of the Still Thoughts to remind myself not to hate anybody.

Gambateh! 3 more quizzes to go! ><

男生~唉

2009-08-13T22:12:00.003+08:00

一开始，对我班的男生真的没什么好感可言~跟小鬼同组，小鬼告诉我一个让我很是吓到的事情~从那件事，我才惊觉，男生的八卦程度绝不低于女生。同时间，我无言以对，毕竟那真的是我的过去，确确实实有过那么一段～还记得那一天晚上，小鬼和我一起步行回宿舍。沿路上，他不断问我，为什么就不能做回朋友。我告诉他，我也想，不过难道真的要我做主动吗～绝不！还以为洋楼之旅会有扭转乾坤的机会～结果换来的结果是，我越来越不爽他～虽然说我信奉一句话“看别人不顺眼是自己的修养不够”，不过，对他，真的.....唉～四年，都会像现在这样吧！

参加school的一个活动，被分派到sponsorship department～我相信一句话，senior的话，始终还是需要过滤～不要盲目的听人家说，这个活动是垃圾，就抱着“我从中一定学不到东西”的心态～我开心，因为我发觉自己有变勇敢了，我敢用那不怎么灵光的英语去跟教授接洽～那天的对话，我觉得真的很是有趣我被教授的幽默逗笑了～今天，认识了一位学长，他告诉我，目前under school的活动，他都参完了～我很佩服～不过绿肺，说真的，不太感兴趣～我总觉得，参加那么一个long term的计划，你就真的要有那股热忱。绿肺的宗旨在于要把我的校园变成无烟校园～我的看法是，你加入了这个团队，每当你看到某某在校园内抽烟的话，我觉得你就有义务走上前去，叫他把烟头灭掉，再向他解说你们的goal~我自认我没那种勇气，因为不想被打～哈哈哈！

理辅，我希望从中可以圆我一梦～第一次例常，有被感染到～

日语班，老师好帅，英文好棒！让我有semangat要把日语搞好！xD

和家人的关系好像有变疏远的感觉～每次通话，都会觉得好像没什么好聊了～我知道这心态很不正确，所以我在很力的控制情绪～

草草

2009-07-25T12:50:00.003+08:00

今天无端端掉泪~到底是怎么了？我也不知道~再跟妈妈聊着电话，就哽咽了~盖上电话，直接飙泪~哈哈~眼浅到要命！

把泪擦干，再出发！

My Uni's Life~

2009-07-24T19:19:00.003+08:00

It has been 3 weeks ady~ 1st and 2nd week were quite free~ bt still PTPTN's stuff made me pening~ Luckily now all have been settled and thx God i managed to get an offer frm JPA~ ^^

3rd week started~ hell's life is jz abt 2 begin~ 2 lab reports, statistic's assignment( wat the hell FAR151, till now i still have no idea wat's the lecturer talking abt. And yet, it was SO SO SO BORING!!), orintation's stuff, PHARMATRADE, nursing home, BANGLOSTAY and etc. Huishh~ wat a hectic life~><

Last weekend attended a camp named "kem pimpin siswa", and it was so exciting and fun~ the night jungle tracking was scary, bt luckily in front of me was my tall leader~ his name is cute, he ping (sounds like peace xD). He was considerate enough and i felt so secured~ the survival cooking part, v need to catch the running chicken by ourselves and sembelih by ourselves too~ at 1st, when v heard tis, v were like OMG~ bt still v managed 2 force a malay guy named Hamdan to sembelih it~ He was so great in cooking man! Curry chicken and ayam kicap ccoked by him were so so so delicious~ bt our rice was a bit hangit~ and it was my fault>< sry guys~ I met xiao meng there oso, bt seemed tat he havent changed much~ the way he talked was still immature~ Zzzz~ and i oso met a weird guy there~ he is such a WEIRDO!! =X

2 lab reports~ finally done!! haharx~ so relieved! 2day went out 2 search 4 sponsorship~ bt v jz managed 2 get RM20~ HAIZ~ such a failure~ shame on myself~ 1st time felt so tersinggung~ coz being rejected 4 unknown times d~ sobz~ bt the RM20 is me get dao de~ lolz~ now jz hoping tat uni's pharm shop will really give us the RM500~ God bless

I had cut my hair tis tuesday~ really short now~ tat day class started at 9am~ it was amali~ 9am till 12 noon~ there was 4 hours gap after amali~ my friend n i went out to Sg Dua's gate there 2 eat~ as v walked there, i saw a saloon. after ordering food, i decided to cut off my hair~ the funniest part was after cuting my hair, there was still class on 4pm~ when i stepped in2 the lecture hall, those chinese were looking at me vit their terkejut faces~ one of them even asked a damn noob ques, tis morning u looked like tis punya meh? haharx~ Not bad la~ a drastic change, at least ppl can realise tat i have changed my hairstyle~ few days later, 2 guys stopped me when i was jz abt to leave the lecture hall, they asked me where i went 2 cut my hair as they wanted 2 trim their hair as well~ i guess tat i have got a not bad hair cut~ xD

I guess i have grown a bit mature ady, at least now i can bear vit all those stress ady~ oh ya~ here's is my advice to those who are planning 2 take pharm in USM next year, prepare some money 1st, even u managed 2 get an offer frm PTPTN or JPA, bt still u gonna wait till August then only u'll get ur money~ luckily i got my sis as my financial support~ i guess i had spent nearly RM800 ady during tis 3 weeks time~ Man, really spend money like water~ bt it was not my fault, here's my expenses:-
a) scuba diving--RM100
b)books---RM136
c)Banglostay--RM40
d)dissecting set--RM40
e)PHARMATRADE--RM50
f)etc etc~ really cost me nearly rm600~
Gosh~~~ bankrupt d~ wanna find a rich bf to sponsor me d><

情绪管理中，告假！

2009-06-25T01:10:00.004+08:00

看回最近的博章，好像都不是些什么开心的事~结果今天一口气写了两篇~Huisshhhh...

我决定了~好好整顿思绪和情绪去~希望自我沉淀一番以后，思想会升级~

大学快要开课了~怕怕！自己那慢热的个性，常常给予他人“你是高傲的一群”像这般负面的第一印象~天啊！我真的不是交际高手~“友善”之神，眷顾我吧！我要交很多很多的新朋友~还有~我想找他问意见去！不过，还是会怕怕~毕竟两年多没见了~再次成为他的学妹，当然开心啦~他，曾是我的好组长！现在竟又成了我的学长，不可思议！O.o

要发奋图强咯~不要再让十九岁留下任何的遗憾了好吗？自信，有增加了~感觉以前的那个我，回来了！加油！

朋友们，你们也一样~青春不留白！

从今天起，告假咯！

歌词咀嚼

2009-06-25T00:39:00.004+08:00

*如果我变成回忆，退出了这场生命~*
（事先声明：我绝对没有轻生的念头）如果我真的退出了这场生命，我.....会成为大家的回忆吗？

*无论怎得罪，你说我是负累，陪着我等于死去了没情趣~*
我希望我不会是任何人的负累，或许应该换句话说，我很努力的试着独立~

*我就是无法归类，拒绝归类，自成一类~*
我要打造最特别的自己~不要把我归类~我不喜欢~真的不喜欢~
我要自成一类！

*爱的时候，说过的承诺，爱过以后，就不要强求~*
我的爱情哲学是：世上并没有所谓的山盟海誓，唯有珍惜当下最为实际~

*我并不是天生爱寂寞，却比任何人都多，就算把世界给我，我还是一无所有~*
就算我拥有了一个爱我的人，最终我还是会一无所有~原因？自己比任何人都懂~

EQ零蛋

2009-06-23T00:06:00.002+08:00

今天的心情，就像过山车~

难过的早上，忙碌的下午，讲很多话的晚上，也是他们吵架的一个晚上~

今天真的精神紧张了一整天，深怕自己不小心说错一句话，抑或是做错一件事~所以每一刻都很小心翼翼~吃饭时，我都不说话~她不停的在找寻臭味的源头，我知道是怎么一回事~但我还是选择保持缄默~现在在这张饭桌上打字，我回忆起刚刚那顿晚餐~只能说，真的很“好笑”~我看着他和她的对话，我以为他一定会提高声量，结果没有~刚刚，无缘无故，他把她骂了一顿~我只能感叹地说一句，这个老爸，是一个计时炸弹，随时都会引爆，只要你一不小心剪错线~

到了晚上，才刚从楼下店面上来没多久，没来得及休息，就得洗澡更衣，准备赴约~我真的很想把这个约会给推辞掉~毕竟真的没有多余的力气再强颜欢笑了~看看墙上的钟，还有十分钟~心想：算了吧！硬着头皮去吧！上了车~第一句就是，“哇！真的好久不见！”一路上，我尽量都不再去想自己今天所经历的，我看得出他也在努力的找话题~我习惯了~所以间中的沉默，并没有让我觉得不自在~反而我很享受那片刻的宁静~相由心生~他的长相有改变，变得好看了，这是我一年后再见到他的第一感觉~我总觉得他有变踏实了，不再是之前那个我认识的花心大少~讲话也没以前那么嚣张浮夸了~

回来以后，看到他在客厅~我就感觉到气氛不太对~果然！

唉！明天~希望会更好！晚安

19062009 聚会

2009-06-20T01:18:00.001+08:00

今天这个聚会，我很喜欢。

见到了几位久违的朋友，特别是他~很特别的一位朋友～一位我很珍惜的朋友～他告诉我，他在走着钢索，进退两难。我不知道自己的直觉是对还是错，我觉得在他的心里，其实早已有了一个较为明确的方向，只是他还是想尝试其他方面，不想就把自己设限于一个框框里～所以，他还是拿不定主意～没关系，还有一个学期让你来决定未来的方向～加油！

很喜欢你的一句话：也许你的自信不是消失了，只是被某某东西遮盖着～
我还在很努力的寻回之前的那副自信～为自己加油！

很感激锟亮豪给了我的一些意见～从与你们的谈话中，我似乎为自己找到了“坚持己见”的理由～感恩！

结果还是有人问起了我和他的事，只能感叹，“好事不出门，坏事传千里”。我承认，我又有始无终，草草的结束了一段感情。就像他说的，我？什么时候才会定性？其实，我也很想知道答案。

出乎意料，我竟然丢下了一句狠话给我老爸，我再也都不钓鱼了！

在车上，伯母说：很好，我最喜欢看到酱子了～怎么这句话…那么的熟悉？原来我妈下午才刚说过～哈哈！妈妈们，你们讲话怎么都那么的一致啊？我其实也很是为朋友们的成绩感到高兴～四位医生，一位兽医，两位牙医，两名药剂师，九名工程师，一名老师，两位精算师，会计师也有好几位。嘻嘻！都是未来式～加油！

RM2108~好贵的学费！

100 Truths

2009-06-18T21:00:00.002+08:00

Tagged~ Innocent me~ >.<

1. Real name: Thai Gaik Lee

2. Nickname: Sharon

3. Age: 18 (not yet 8th of July wat!)

4. Horoscope: Cancer

5. Male or Female: U say neh? 50% male 50% female?? Maybe~ LOL

6. Elementary: Methodist Kindergarten in PB

7. Middle School: SJK ( C ) Sin Hwa

8. High School: SMJK Krian

9. College: KMJ @ JMC

10. Hair colour; Brownish black + white

11. Long or short: Middle length

12. Loud or quiet: Depends on my mood~

13. Sweats or jeans: Jeans

14. Phone or camera: HP with camera~ so i guess both!

15. Health freak: Just recover!! I'm healthy!!

16. Drink or smoke: No!! @@

17. Do you have a crush on someone: I did, but not now~

18. Eat or drink: Zzzz… what a stupid ques!! Sure both!!

19. Piercings: Yes, on ears! Perhaps will add on someday later~

20. Tattos: Yukss!!

21. Social or anti-social: It depends~

22. Righty or lefty: Righty

23. First piercings: When I was 12!! Old huh~

24. First Relationship: When I was 15, with him~

25. First Best Friend: Karen~ Hmm~ Miz those time~

26. First award: Mana I rmb? During kindergarten time perhaps~

27. First Kiss: Gave it to him~

28. First pet: Fish~ Caught frm longkang one~ I used to torture it~ kakaz

29. First big vacation: Went to Singapore with mummy during Primary 3

30. First love at first sight: Nope~

31. First big birthday: When I was 1-year-old

32. First surgery: Primary 5 or 6? 4got d~ Blur blur~

33. First sport you joined: 4got d~

34. Orange or apple juice: I love apple, but juice,hmm~ Orange~

35. Rock or rap: I like both!

36. Country or screamo: Country style is acceptable la~

37. NSYNC or Backstreet Boys: Both~

38. Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera: None of them~ Gimme more~

39. Night or day: Now is night~

40. Sun or moon: No moon 2day~

41. PlayStation or xbox: Game noob~

42. TV or internet: Both!

43. Kiss or Hug: I prefer hug~ *feels good when being hugged*

44. Iguana or turtle: Both are just YUKSS!!!

45. Spider or bee: Uekkkkk!!!

46. Fall or spring: Fall

47. Limewire or ITunes: LimeWire

48. Soccer or baseball: I like to watch soccer

49. Eating: Not so like eating~

50. Drinking: Cant live without water

51. Excitement level: 100 (Full=1299)

52. I’m about to: Drink water ( Thirsty liao)

53. Listening to: Radio (988)

54. Plan for holiday: Holiday is going to end very soon

55. Waiting for: Time to sleep

56. Energy level: 18 (bo lat liao)

57. Thinking of someone: Thinking of myself

58. Want kids: Perhaps, depends on my spouse

59. Want to get married: Sure!! Waiting for someone to raise me! Wakaka!

60. When: When a boy that I love knelt in front of me and propose to me

61. How many kids do you want: 3

62. Any names in mind: TXK! (coz he tagged me eh~ Grr~)

63. What did you want to be when you were little: Doctor

64. Careers in mind: Pharmacist

65. Mellow future or wild: Wild but still under control de type

66. Something you would never try: Drugs, tattoo

67. When do you want to die: When the time has come

68. Lips or eyes: I dunlike neither of that

69. Romantic or funny: Depends what role I’m playing~

70. Shorter or taller: I’m short

71. Protective or caring: I’m not protective nor caring

72. Romantic or spontaneous: Depends how much I love and want him

73. Nice stomach or arms: Skip

74. Hooked up or Relationship: Apa ni?

75. Trouble maker or hesitant: I’m both

76. Kissed a stranger: Ewww… No!!

77. Broken a bone: Still perfect!

78. Lost glasses or contacts: nope~ I’m not wearing spec~

79. Muscular or normal: Normal

80. Ran away from home: Thought of it b4~ LOL

81. Held a gun/knife for self defence: Nope

82. Killed somebody: NO!!

83. Broken someone’s heart: I did! Sry~

84. Had your heart broken: Haiz~

85. Been arrested: Of course NO!! My record is still clean!!

86. Cried when someone died: Yes~

87. Like a friend more than a friend: Nope~

88. Yourself: An emo gal

89. Miracles: I believe there’s miracles

90. Love at first sight: Low probability for this to happen on me~

91. Heaven: Heaven is a place on earth

92. Santa Claus: I don’t believe in santa claus

93. Tooth fairy: I do believe in fairies! I do! I do!

94. Kiss on the first date: NOPE!

95. Angels: Got de gua~

96. Is there anyone that you want to be with right now: Nope

97. Are you seriously happy with where you’re in life now: Perhaps~ Hmmm~

98. Do you believe in God: Yes!

99. Post as 100 truths and tag 7 people: There’s only 99 truths~ Zzzzz~ I dunwan tag anybody~

ZChen

2009-06-17T21:58:00.001+08:00

Support ZChen!! His songs r damn nice~ N oso Tang Xiao Kang~ And oso Lin Yi Xin~

Msia singers~~ Go go go!!!

Akon Freedom Beach Concert in MSIA

2009-06-16T20:22:00.004+08:00

Oh no!! Oh my God!! Akon is coming to Malaysia!!!!

He~~~ rockz!!!

2nd of July~ 8pm~ Sunway Lagoon Beach~ 1st beach concert in msia~ Wow!!

Haiz~ I cant go~ Sad~ If I were in KL tat time, I will go!

Anyway, guys, those who r in KL, if can, support him by attending!! And take some recordings~ I want to c la~

Akon, U ROCKZ!!!! Luv u so so much!!! ^^

My Whole New Wishlist b4 i turn 19

2009-06-15T01:41:00.002+08:00

I wish my 19th bfday would be a special day~ actually~ i'm hoping tat there's someone who is expert in clubbing would acc me go there~~ Gosh~~ I'm damn curious wat'd b the atmosphere inside there~ would it be really like wat my friend told me? Diff class eh pub would have diff degree eh complexity~ To be continue.....

I wish I would have a IPhone 3Gs~ Of coz, tis wouldnt b granted tis year eh la~ Jz SS nia~ xD

I wish I would keep tis blog till me old or maybe.... dead??? Haharx~ Blogging is fun, dude!! Long live bloggers!!

I wish I would get to know lots of new friends when i start my uni's life~ Anticipating anxiously~~and no more fake ppl, PLZ~ sick of facing those wearing "mask"(not for preventing A H1N1 eh mask la~ duih) eh ppl~ it reminds me of PXXXXXN, and tis makes me feel like i'm gonna puke~ Uekkkkk~ Plz la~ Fake ppl~ sumore tat PXXXXXN is calling herself as tis animal~ Alamak~ mempersiasuikan my fav. animal nia~ Duih~

I wish there's someone would fetch me go here and there~~ Feel ashamed on myself~ got my license N months ago, and yet those driving skills macam dah lesap dari ingatanku~ Sobz~

I wish I would have the determination to keep my hair till 2011~ Ahahahahaha~ V shall c la har~ whether TGL can make it anot~ =p

I wish my dad and mum wont quarrel anymore~ sounds impossible~ hmmm~~ at least dun quarrel while i'm at home la har~ kekez~

I wish 2007 Krian's Form 5 batch's students will still keep in touch no matter when~ even N years later~ Krian rockz~~~ Love u all so so so much~~ muackz!!!

Tat's all~~ Oh ya~ B4 I forget, i wish i would get a good roomate~~ God bless!!^^

肤浅

2009-06-14T01:12:00.002+08:00

jm said...
if u say m'sia is a 言论自由's country, i m wondering whether r u really so naive or u don even noe how to judge.. maybe u r just a book worm.. believes everything stated in the book.. like wat moral nilai says "kebebasan bersuara".. we people don really have full "kebebasan"

天啊！我竟然被人这样射！不忿！除了不忿还是不忿！我告诉你，现在搞不清状况的人是你，这并不是一个敏感课题，并没有牵涉到政治，宗教，抑或是种族课题，所以绝不会搞到政府援引内安法令来拘捕我～我看不见有哪一点是不可以让人发表意见的～你校童军既然策划出那么样一项活动，自然得做好心理准备，men are hard to please,褒贬不一的评价，是在所难免的～现在的你就犹如那些不让我们这些平民百姓发表我们内心的意见的独裁者～我们是崇尚言论自由的，肤浅的家伙！不要把你自己当神般来看待，你不过也只是平民，既然你知道我们在这国家并没有所谓的“完全的言论自由”，就得好好地争取这基本的人权（如果你并不打算这么做，请你也不要打沉我们追逐，向往言论自由的热忱和信心。闪一边去吧！）

八九十

2009-06-13T11:21:00.000+08:00

还是喜欢夜晚的寂静，美中不足的是再也没有徐徐的凉风了。最近的天气真的是太太太热了～也让我发现其实自己的汗腺还真的不是盖的发达～天啊！这样的天气还真的不知会持续多久

夜半无所事事，四处到人家的部落格去看看～很是惊讶，自己的部落格，竟会出现慈的留言～真的很巧，就在这个时候，手机讯息的提示音响起，拿起来看，原来是慈～向她要了她的部落格网址，接着就去游荡了～她的文字，永远都能给我一种莫名的舒适感～没有华丽的文字修饰，但就是能让我感到她写网志的用心～不愧是含慈噢！嘻嘻

八九十，原来给你的震撼是那么的深刻～先是看了你的留言，再看了你的《叱吒》，才真的感受到～很想知道八在你心中是怎么样的一位朋友。

还记得以前曾经试过在深夜和你聊电话，我俩似乎都谈得不亦乐乎～哈哈！很是怀念～
还记得我们曾经一起在背后劲踩抄袭我们部落格名句的那位女生吗？最近也曾上过她的部落格，她的文字，也有你一半的功力了～不得不感叹停滞不前，仍留在原地踏步的是自己～我的华文～唉！大不如前！
不过，我始终没变～我还是热爱华文的，因为我是炎黄子孙嘛！XD
怀念演讲的日子～～

萧老师这九月会回国，希望有机会见她！老师，我这小瓜祝福您噢！^^

when u fall sick, it really suckzz!

2009-06-11T13:58:00.003+08:00

3rd day d, OMG! it's getting more and more serious~ Mummy, come back ASAP la~ I'm dying d~
sore throat+flu+a bit fever= A H1N1?
LOL~ 2day mummy forced me 2 go clinic and consult doctor~ at 1st I was really reluctant 2 go, as i felt bo lat 2 walk anymore, sumore i nvr tried go n consult doc by myself eh~
at last, still went jor as mummy keep calling me, made me wanted oioi oso hard~ Zzzz...
went jor, the doc is handsome la~ but vry cincai lo~ got he said, no me said~
"lu kia jit har mi su??"
"sheng bing..hehe"
"O.o... flu?"
"yaya"
"hou long you tong ma?"
"got"
"mei you ke sou la hor?"
When i was abt 2 nod, he wanted 2 listen 2 my heartbeat liao~ really dotz~
take my body temp twice~ den jiu ok le~ 5 min gao dim
walau eh~ doc really gud in sucking money~ WTF! My RM45, gone like tat~ xim tia~
3 med, antibody, ZTech, sore throat de pills~ RM45????
*smacking my head on wall*
if i noe he is going 2 treat me tis pity patient like tat, i sure wont consult him~ even suffer 1 more day i oso gan yuan~ wait till my idol, Dr. Poh tmrw on duty back~ so noob me!
haiz~ 没妈的孩子，really像根草。
suffer 1 more day ba, TGL~ T.T

病

2009-06-09T13:40:00.000+08:00

今早一起床，喉咙就很不舒服。我知道，要发炎了。连续灌了两瓶水，结果还是一样。开始不停打喷嚏了，现在还觉得冷冷的。接下来找上我的一定是发烧。唉！亏我做了四天的乖孩子，十二点之前就上床睡觉，饮食也超正常，结果还是病了。好久都没生病了，病的感觉，不好受！

右眼很不舒服，感觉肿肿的，但其实看不出有任何异样，只是眼眶周围有少许发红而已。这是身体给我的讯息吗？不知道！只想好好的睡一觉。

我的快乐，会回来的…但愿如此。

no title XD

2009-06-03T00:48:00.000+08:00

我开始相信“一切在冥冥之中已有了安排”这一句话。没能拿到我要的成绩，当时的我有种“前途一片茫然”的感觉。刚开始的几天，一旦想到“未来”，窒息的感觉就会涌现。虽然是很喜欢营养学这一科系没错，然而我看不到在马来西亚会有太大的发展空间。我承认，我很在乎“钱途”。如果硬是要我在兴趣和“钱途”之间做选择，我会毫不犹豫地选择后者。当初会毅然放弃选修心理学就是这个原因。之后也慢慢的发觉自己其实不善于开导他人，放弃也许是对的。至于是什么时候开始确定自己要的就是“药剂系”，我也忘了。在拿到第一学期的成绩，眼泪决堤，药剂系好像已不太可能，不过几经谢老师和妈妈的开导下，我又恢复了那么一丁点的自信心。很努力了，结果还是拿不到我要的成绩，甚至比上学期更烂。这一次，我不再流泪，也许是已经麻木了吧！命运往往就是那么爱作弄我，越是努力，越是与理想背道而驰。当时，我对药剂系已不抱任何期望。在选科时，我是很想把营养学改放第一位，但父母不允许我那么做，我也只好顺从他们的意思。很意外，我从来没想过自己会得到，特别是这间大学，更是不曾在我脑海中闪过。毕竟在拿到第一学期的成绩以后，就有人向我暗示“你是不可能得到该大学的！”，很自然的，我就再也没妄想了。我知道很多人都不忿，我深知自己是没有资格拿到的，毕竟比我强很多的大有人在..失落，在所难免..但是，这几天沉淀下来，我觉得既然上天已给了自己这个机会，我就该好好珍惜，甚至是藉此机会证明自己..玉莉，加油！这次真的要好好把握！

妈妈，我知道我很不乖，最近整天向您发脾气，对您爱理不理的..对此，我真的很抱歉。太多太多东西不断在我脑子里浮现，“钱”是我最大的困扰，我知道您何尝也不是！我…好像真的快乐不起来…越是懂事，越是发现自己原来那么不讨喜，所以在大人面前，我已不想再多说话，因为总觉得在不适当的时候出声，是种幼稚的表现。渐渐的，我在家里也习惯了这种生存模式。如今，我唯有希望自己能在大学里考出耀眼的成绩，继续让爸爸“脸上有光”。除此，我真的不知道还有什么可以让妈妈在家里的日子好过一些。也许，最坏的日子已过去..但愿如此…朋友，别用异样的眼光看我，我的家庭是不怎么样，但是我的心理绝对正常和健康，还是你们之前认识幼稚，疯狂的我。放心，我也有着小草般的生命力^^为我加油吧！

to ying ying and teng teng

2009-05-29T22:55:00.000+08:00

Dry sis, damn happy when i knew u get pharm as well~ really happy~ den teng teng told me u would accept the offer since i got it too, tat time i felt so honoured~ wakaka~ u r so "wei3 da4"! Luv u so much~~

Teng teng~ i couldnt go to KL, i was thinking " haiz.. cant meet dafei anymore".. Bt at last, i get 2 meet u again~~ can hiao 2gether again (u said eh). haha!! Yeah!! really got 2 hang out again!! wakaka XD

Luv u both^^

^^

2009-05-29T22:17:00.001+08:00

I was like " OMG!" when i saw those words "Tahniah.....". Huh? Was tat possible?
As i said b4, when i got my PSPM II's result, Pharmacy seems like is getting further and further, or in other word "mission impossible" for TGL. But at last, maybe da fei's blessing worked out or what, i really dunhav any idea, I HIT MY GOAL!!! OMG!!
Today when i was having my lunch, i was day dreaming too~ i was thinking shud i contact Ken if i really get dietetic~~ Hmm.. He shud b a pro in tis course~ Maybe i shud consult him for some opinion~ Zzzzz..
I left my hp downstair and terus naik upstairs and had my nap before i rmb i had left out my hp sumwhere~ When i found it, i saw 3 mc and 1 msg~ mc is frm my big bro, msg is frm teng teng~ she told me usm intake name list was out~ I din take it too serious~ after half an hour, baru i replied her, asking her whether my dry sis got it 2 as well? She told me probably not, den i was like "cheh! ying oso cant get, apatah la me?". An hour later, den only i opened up laptop and checked. I was really calm~ coz i was used to console myself vit "luck jz wasnt on ur side", i was preparing to console myself again vit tis cogan kata AGAIN~ I typed my no rujukan 1 by 1, using single hand, den suddenly it popped out "tahniah, anda ditawarkan ......"! I screamed out! Yeah!! *Really loud*Mummy asked "what happen? sot jor?" I replied "Mi... I got USM's Pharmacy!!" "Har?? Really? Yeah!! Thx God!! Told u d~ I had confident in u!"
My mind went blank~ the 1st thing i did was called teng teng up~ told her everything~ and i knew tat time my tone was like a kid get her xmas gift!! haha!! she kept on smiling and calling me "shapo"! wakaka!
Thx 4 those friends who had blessed me! I promise i would study really hard tis time~^^
Muackz!!!

New lease of life~ I'm waiting

2009-05-27T16:40:00.000+08:00

再过四天，几个小魔头就要来了。很是期待，我已经过了将近一个半月死气沉沉的生活，迫切希望会有些变化。Come on, let’s give me something new!!重新爱上《放生》这首歌，心情不好，只要一听它，再烂的心情也会有所改善，我称它为“我的therapy song”。哈哈！暂时的我已对男生完全失去信心，how about lesbian?不是没在我脑海里闪过，只是结论是“我不能接受酱的自己”，所以，FAIL! 哈哈！
疯狂的上半年，即将结束，距离19岁也不远了。快！我要长大！我要定性！我要证明给自己看，我可以定下性来的！佃玉莉，我誓要你重生！加油！你可以办到的！
现在回头看看自己，怎么总是把自己困在感情问题里？有必要吗？我现在的答案是“真的没这种必要”。既然没能力去改写历史，那就展望未来。我不会再准许自己深陷泥沼，甚至是做错决定。我不会再给他人wrong signal了。我要当Ms. Independent =P

to whom it may concern

2009-05-27T16:36:00.001+08:00

今天听说了一些关于他的事，坦白说，有些意外。不是不开心，更没有所谓的吃醋，只是….我…还是那句，意外！不过，冷静地想了想以后，其实even仅有一天的时间，也可以发生很多事。“承诺常常都像蝴蝶，美丽盘旋然后不见”，所以我从来都不相信承诺，更甭提什么山盟海誓，我只把持一个信念“珍惜当下”。Hmm…既然当初提出分手的人是我，我就没资格评论些什么了，免得被人家说自己犯贱，因为我现在是以“重新提醒自己，不会有人永远等你”的心情来写这篇网志，绝非“放不下”。这是我想强调的，我不喜欢他人误会自己，虽然黄宗泽说过：“不用向他人解释，因为相信你的人，即使你不解释，他们也会了解你”，但是我想我办不到，我就是要解释！XD

给你：
引用你曾经对我说过的一句话“就让一切随风”。我会暂时把我和你之间的点点滴滴暂时封尘，因为如果越是强迫自己去回忆，我怕我会越是容易忘记。我不想忘记，结局已不是我们预期般的“彼此的最后一个伴侣”，不过回忆仍是美好的，不要抹煞。没能履行陪你去逛街的承诺，是我的遗憾。对不起。我知道我和你之间存在着太多太多的“对不起”了，不过除此之外，我真的不懂我还能说些什么了。我的任性，让你一次又一次的受伤，甚至违背你的原则，再度原谅我。只是太多太多次的误会，我们都累了。你和她的事，对我留下的阴影，真的很大。即使你一次又一次的说服我，你已放下她，但我…或许自信心不足吧！总会往负面的那方面想。回头想想，其实那时你也很快就接受了我，如今只是历史重演，只是现在我和她的身份和立场都掉换了。我相信她会是你对的人，希望如此。^^祝福你！

blue blue sky+blue blue mood=?

2009-05-20T17:22:00.000+08:00

Blue blue mood 2day even though the sky is blue. Hmm.. What's de prob? Dun have de luck? Zzzz.. Really sienzz and fed up vit tis kind of result.. SUCK!!!
What so ever~~ Although i'm mad vit myself, i cant change anything d~ Maybe this is my fate~ Zzzz...
Pharmacy?? Mission impossible now~~ Zzz... Luckily i still have another course of interest, that is dietetic~ Hmm~~ Another way of consoling myself~~
No more tears this time~~ Dun have the strength to cry anymore~
Still rmb my cogan kata during form 4“泪干了，心也死了”, still can be used now huh?
Haiz~~~